Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Doing What I Like. :)


I've decided that..

I'm gonna try doing what I like.


Sunday, September 27, 2009

Something Again

New song alert!


Something Again.


Here's what I'd like to tell you.

Here's what I'd like to say.

You don't know me

but I'd like you to stay.


Do you feel guilty

about things that you've done?

Do you feel sad

about anyone?


Cause I'd like to tell you that I, I'm starting again.

And I'd like you to be the one to start it all over with.


Can't you see I want you, I want you to be with me.

Take my hand if you want, if you want to be something.

We could be something again. x2


I like being honest

It hasn't gotten me anywhere.

Do you find that

I try to hard not to care?


Let's be honest, I'm not worth it, and neither are you.

Bet let's just try this, we'll talk about it, see what we can do.


Can't you see I want you, I want you to be with me.

Take my hand if you want, if you want to be something.

We could be something again. x2


You can take, oh,

anything you want from me. You can take it all. x3



Can't you see I want you, I want you to be with me.

Take my hand if you want, if you want to be something.

We could be something again. x2


Saturday, September 26, 2009

I'm extremely excited for the future, and am working towards it wholeheartedly.

Ahh, good morning fellow bloggers and reader's of my blog! :)
Today is a BEAUTIFUL day. It's absolutely gorgeous, and I'm feeling great about it!

This could be the beginning of the not-so-depressing blogs! =P

It feels like the perfect day for new beginnings. C=

I just had a shower, so I'm nice and refreshed, which is a good way to start any day. I had breakfast, and since it's SO stunning out, I'm thinking I might go for a ride around the neighborhood. But my brothers still sleeping, and I don't know the combo to open the shed which has "my" (my mum's) bike in it. So, I suppose I must wait for him to wake.

I wouldn't dare to go for a walk. I'd feel to lonely.
I need SOMETHING with me, even if it is inanimate.


After I do that, and have lunch. I would like to roll all of my money and make a deposit to my saving's account. So far I have... what was it now?... I think around $1300. Which is pretty good for just working in the summer and a few odd jobs throughout the year. :]

After that, me and my mum are going to see Shamik play his afternoon show at Beacon Hill Park's "Earth Dance." We met Shamik in Comox when I was playing at the Van Island Music Fest. He's super sweet and an awesome beat-boxer! It's the perfect day to go downtown and sit outside for a performance, I'm loving this already! =)


I've been watching a lot of tour video's lately. I bought Paramore's Final Riot tour DVD, last night I saw parts of one of Madonna's tours and I'll also admit that I've been searching random interview's and behind-the-scenes video's with artist's like Paramore, and Taylor Swift. Oh! And I also have Sarah McLachlan's concert DVD.

So, why am I telling you all this?

Well, before, when I was younger and less experienced with performing, I was terrified at the thought of getting on a stage in front of thousands of people and performing.

Now? Now, I'm actually excited at the thought.
I ACTUALLY want to do that. And do it over, and over, and over again.

I am stoked to tour one day.

Now, I am ready for what I want to do.

I'm extremely excited for the future, and am working towards it wholeheartedly.

I want this.
And I have to make it happen.
I'm going to make it happen.

I've decided.

"It's about choosing your path, and sticking to it no matter what."
-I don't remember who said that. =P

Right now, what I'm doing to make it happen is recording my first album.
After I've finished it, I want to do a mini tour. :] Play everywhere I can, at school's, events, venues, etc.. and promote my CD. Were also going to try and get radio play and shoot some new music video's and send them in to MTV.

I'm excited. =]]


Thursday, September 24, 2009

Up and Down.


Are my blog posts getting more and more depressing by the entry?
Please, be honest with me. Cause I think they are.

I think I am.

Things right now are weird.
Today wasn't particularly a good day either.

It was up and down.
Like everything seems to be lately.

I'm not trying to sound dramatic but, this is a place where I reveal a lot (or all ideally) of my thoughts and feelings. So right now, this is what I'm going through. This is how I feel.

I mean, if your reading this, YOU ASKED FOR IT. =P


I can't seem to help it right now. I've been trying to get out of this funk for the past couple of weeks, but it keeps dragging on.

.. I keep dragging on.

I'm the kind of person that believes everything in your life (except for the things you can't control like freak accidents and things like diseases) but all the other things are brought on by how you act and the choices you make. So my first reaction when situations become unfortunate is to try to make them better by changing the way that I act. By being more positive, right?

Well, that's what I set out to do this morning. But here I am yet again and pretty much the same thing happened.

This doesn't make any sense to you does it?

I just don't want to take pity on myself, you know?

I just honestly, feel like crap.


I should get out of the house.

Bike ride here I come!


Tuesday, September 22, 2009

I honestly do not sing in the shower.

It's 8:45 PM, the night is young.

What to do, oh what to do?..

I usually never have this problem, in fact, I always have the opposite problem. The whole "not enough hours in the day" syndrome. =P But tonight is a different story.

I'm sitting here in my bedroom, staring at my phone, staring at the time. There's to many things on my mind. To many bad things. To many things I wish weren't there.

It's why I can't focus on getting anything done.
In these types of situations, I think the best thing to do is relax. So that entails like, watching a movie or something.

My laundry!
There's something I can do!! =o


-Okay, now that I've done that, what?

I picked up my cat, Louie.

That was... fun.


Oh boy,

I know what to do.
I'll have a shower. That'll calm me down. Then I'll snuggle up on the couch, or my bed and watch TV. Or a movie. Or anything really to keep my mind from wondering.

You know how a lot of people sing in the shower? I don't. You may find it ironic, I do. You know, since that's my dream and my job. =P But, I honestly do not sing in the shower. I think. I think about everything that happened that day, things that I need to do, thoughts that have been pushed aside for later, they come up then.

Which kind of sounds creepy that I'm talking about what I think about while I'm in the shower.


To much information?

Okay, then I'll leave it at that.

Till the next time I'm bored and depressed,


Monday, September 21, 2009

How you used to be able to talk to them for hours, and now you barely look at them.

"It's sad when the people you know, become the people you knew. When you walk past someone like they were never part of your life. How you used to be able to talk to them for hours, and now you barely look at them. It's sad how time changes everything."

I'm quoting Carl from his status he set this morning, approximately an hour ago.

It's so true. It's like he read my mind, new what I was going through right now and put it into words. Of course, I'm assuming that he didn't write it himself, but who knows: maybe he did.

That's Carl in the middle. This picture was taken yesterday at the Luxton Fair right after I finished playing.

Cotton candy at any type of fair is a must.

Anyway, I can totally relate to that quote. Reading it, and thinking about it, makes me sad. But the only thing about it I don't quite agree with is "It's sad how time changes everything." It may seem like time is what's driving two people apart, but really it's the people themselves. Time is blamed because to them, it's the only thing that changed. They want to see the person they knew before, so they think if they could just go back in time, it would fix everything. But obviously that can't be done.

The only choice you have is to move forward, and succumb to the new terms. To the new person.. Some people can't be brought back. But some people can.

I hope I'm dealing with that second kind of person.

To be completely honest, I remembered yesterday when we were driving to Luxton that I've lost two friends in the past several months.

Right now, just going with my educated guess, I'd say that one of these friends I can get back pretty easily. The other? I don't know. and that's what scares me.

It's always the unknown that scares people the most, isn't it?

Well, right now I'm going through my days not dealing with these lost friends. Things are hectic. And I shouldn't be the only one trying to fix things. It should be a joint effort, like friendship's supposed to be.

I'm just glad those friends weren't the only good ones I have.
I still have amazing ones that'll stand by me and help me through anything.
And most importantly: make me happy, and SKIP the drama.

Signing off->

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

A blog in which I mention tomorrow being an eventful day, along with Grant and Sarah, two of my awesome friends. :]

Hm.. do math homework or write in my blog?..


Tomorrow is an eventful day.
Three eventful things are happening.

1. It's picture day - So everyone is going to get dressed up all nice and pretay! :P lol
2. Were going to Hiro's (It's Hiro's Thursday!) according to me, Heather and Grant. :]
3. Little Carley (aka my awesome ex neighborhood friend) is coming over after school!

In the words of Grant Alyn McLachlan..



Indeed it will be. I'm actually kind of liking school right now. My classes, all around, are pretty fun. Besides math, but even that's not too bad. Sarah's in it for instance!

Oh, since I'm mentioning Sarah..


"This is my 2nd Vlog.
It wasn't shot specifically for that purpose only, but we had a ton of fun filming it, as you can see, lol. This is an example of the kinds of things we do together. :P

When I say "we" I mean me and my friend that I met last year, in none other than Drama class. (I've met so many of my friends in drama classes over the years)

Her name's Sarah, Sarah Jaaaaane Cashin. :D
She's pretty amazing I'd say. She wants to be an SNL actor (her dream job) and that's made pretty obvious in this video. =P

I have the funnest time with her. (and yes I know funnest isn't a word).
She's the one that I can sleep over at her house and really not sleep at all. :P
We stay up till 5 in the morning, earliest was 3 or 4 I think, lol.

She's just hilarious.
I like having hilarious people in my life.
It makes it better. :)

Oh, and p.s. - don't judge us. ;) lol



Okay, that was what I was GOING TO write for my 2nd Vlog.
But sadly the upload didn't work because it's 9 minutes long. :( sad face.

But I had to put that up because, well, Sarah is the greatest!


That's two of my friends I've mentioned in this here blog.

Oh man, I love my friends so much.
Have I mentioned this before? Well in case I haven't..


They really, truly are.

Also, since I'm on the topic of awesome people,
my family is also pretty great. :)

In fact, right now I want to go run off with my mother and watch some TV and bake cookies. :) Isn't that such a mother-daughter thing to do? :P

So, until next time..
And I think I'm gonna post a special picture.. or maybe a few.. tee hee.. on here later.

So stay tuned! :]


Monday, September 14, 2009

Thanks Imogen :]

Whenever I'm feeling down, I listen to Imogen Heap.

It makes me happy and calm. =]

Thanks Imogen. :]

Right now -> "Maddening Shroud"
which actually is a Frou Frou song (Imogen and Guy Sigsworth).


A blog entry you probably won't want to even bother reading

I think that I hate routines.

School is one of those routines.. that I hate.

Like I said before it's insanely time consuming, it disrupts your peaceful morning, fills your day with non productive things (from my perspective anyway) and you don't, well I don't end up getting home till 4. And by the time that happens I'm tired, and I just want to relax. So i don't do anything, then we have dinner, and then it's late and I'm even more tired, and usually anyway, I just don't do anything.

lol. LAAAME, i know.

It's probably just how I'm feeling now.
I think I'm feeling quite depressed and down about it.

It's just the mood I'm in, I'll presume.


I just don't feel like doing ANYTHING.
Do you ever get like that? Where you literally just want to lay , i don't know, on your bed, or the couch and just lay there. I was thinking to myself, well I'm tired and I really don't want to do anything so, I could have a shower.. and I didn't even want to do that.

lol, this could be a little to much information for all of you out there, but, none the less, that is the fact. And that is what happened.

I don't lie much. or at all really.
Unless it's completely relevant. ;)

--- Just took a break to find my cat and play with him.
He's been depressed also lately. For a few weeks.. his name's Louie. :P
He's meowing right now...ugghh... he's become a lot of work.

------ Well, I just successfully played with him.
Didn't know that was possible. When he pounces, he actually doesn't bite and
scratch. He really is just playing. He's not trying to kill us! =o

He's lonely. That's why he's depressed and down.

Hmm.. that could be someone else's problem too..

He need's a friend. My mum actually mentioned the thought that we could get another cat. I thought that would be so cute, of course. Louie definitely needs a little friend. We can't play with him every second of the day, which is what he seems to want right now.


Wow, two sighs! =o
Could that be a record?

Well, I think I'm gonna have that shower now.
To be completely honest, I don't even feel like typing this entry up right now.

I'm in a "blah" mood.
And I can't even blame it on my period. :P

bahaha, sorry for any guys that happen to be reading this right now.
But, if your gonna read a 15 year old girl's blog, a very truthful 15 year old girl, that's bound to be mentioned at least once. lol

So, you asked for it! =P

Any who,
School tomorrow, must completely veg until then.
Sounds like a good game plan to me!


Sunday, September 13, 2009

Vma's, twilight, and school once again.

So tonight I watched the VMA's with my (in the words of Feath) "rentals" and it was indeed a very interesting one. Full of many interesting events.

And they weren't even lying this time.
It was the most SHOCKING VMA'S EVER! =P

Seriously man. wow.

From the MJ tribute's to Kanye west being a complete a**hole (yeah, that's right my blog is censored), to Beyonce being totally thoughtful and giving Taylor Swift her moment.

Now everyone hates Kanye, and loves Beyonce and Taylor Swift.

Oh, and I left out all of Lady Gaga's outfit changes. O.O

This is just one of them..

Scary huh?

I was sure startled and confused by them all.
They just kept on getting worse and more shocking than the one before.


I just don't understand.

Anyway, it was quite interesting. I don't usually watch any awards show's but I wanted to watch this one for one specific reason.



Although, I had already watched it on the internet (it was leaked onto YouTube) I still had to watch it on "the big screen" aka our decent sized HD TV.

It looked even more epic and exciting than before. :]
Call me a screaming fan girl, but I REALLY enjoy the Twilight series, and just about anything to do with it. BESIDES all of the sudden Vampire related things that are just deciding to come out now, after all of Twilight's huge success. Coincidence? I think not.

But, the reason I love twilight is because, (for me anyway) plain and simple. It's a funny, well written love story for the ages. that may seem a little pre mature to say "for the ages" but that's just how I see it personally. If titanic qualifies as that, then Twilight sure as heck does!

This (above) was my screensaver for a while. :] tee hee.

I just, absolutely love it. I think it's good to have something you mildly obsess over. =P
It feels good to get excited about something!


On another note, school's tomorrow. It's a full week!

Not quite.

But not, not hooray either. =P
It's not THAT bad. And tomorrow it's only a half day for me. I'm going to my orthodontist in the morning to get my moldings for my invisiline.
In 2 years I shall half straight teeth! I know that sounds like a long time but, I was just thinking how fast these last two years will go by in school, by the time that rolls around, I'll be rid of my "braces." Sounds like good timing right?
That's what I thought! :]

Well, I better start getting things ready for tomorrow.
And finally take my quilt out of the dryer, because I'm pretty sure it's dry by now!
=P lol.

Till next time,

Saturday, September 12, 2009



I've proven to you I'm fair.
It's one of those moments when everything is so clear.
I want to get to know you better
and find all the things that I've been missing.

Can you take, just what I say, and turn it into something?



Friday, September 11, 2009

"Have you ever met someone that confused you?"

Have you ever met someone that confused you?

Like literally, confused you. Like, the things that they say and do don't make sense to you.
From the way that they act, to the way that they look at you.

I've met somebody like that.

Of course, all of the people involved in my life (well with situations that are bad and.. weird) are left anonymous. So I won't name this person.

But I suppose, that's irrelevant anyway.

It's more of the circumstance.

It's just kind of funny.
It makes you think, it makes you question things. It makes you wonder..

Hm. =\

Well, I have all weekend to wonder, I won't see them again till then.

School is taking up a big fat chunk of my life.
And I don't like it. I'm not saying I don't like school, I'm saying I don't like how time consuming it is. So I've decided to just be a busy, positive person this year. Just go with the flow, and work a lot on my music on the weekends. I still really want to make my first album, and I won't let school interfere with that. Even though IT'S SO TIME CONSUMING.

lol, I'm so good at looking on the down side of things.
And I know how bad of a quality that is to have.

I just know that last year, going to high school, I didn't work as near as much on my music as I have been these past few weeks of summer. And now, even though school is back, I'm still going to try and keep working hard at it.

I call my music "my work" but it's really my play.
It's only technically work when I go busking, or play a gig anywhere, because I get paid.

lol, obviously.

So, that's today for you.
That's my thoughts and goals.

I'm going to go think some more and work towards achieving them. =P

Signing off,

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

First Day of Grade 11

Today was the first day of school.

-_- / :)

It was .. good, kind of strange. It was definitely different.
Things happened that were good, and some that were bad.. and some that were just .. for lack of a better word - weird.

Hm, how do I feel about it?

Well, I feel kind of relieved, for some classes. Some classes should be interesting like Choir. Sounds like a lot of things that I wouldn't normally do. I don't even have choir tomorrow, it goes back and forth between Social Studies. So that's what I have tomorrow.

I have a killer headache right now. I guess that's gotta tell you something.. lol.
But to be fair, I didn't even have lunch. I checked out my "big boy" locker instead. =P
It's my first year with a tall one. It's pretty rad. :)

I don't think this year will be that bad.
It might actually be kind of.. fun. Dare I say it.

Oh yeah, and I'm going to Banff.


lol, it's for Choir. The Rocky Mountain Music Festival is there.
That should be very interesting.. choir in general should be. I don't really have much friends in that class. None of my immediate friends, that's for sure. But I did see some familiar faces. There's even an "ice breaker" party their holding.. yeah.. I sure hope that it doesn't involve any type of dancing.

Have I ever mentioned that? I don't dance.
I'm an awkward person. I find it embarrassing.

I've heard that a lot of musicians don't dance. Maybe it's because we make the music, and would rather tap our foot and bob our head then dance .. on a dance floor.

Hm, I don't think that explanation makes much sense at all. lol

But a lot of things today don't.

We'll see how tomorrow is..

That's all for now, I'll post an update, as always of how things go.

Till then,

Monday, September 7, 2009

Very First Vlog! - Saanich Fair 2009

So this is my very first Vlog! :)

It's quite an exciting moment, going down in history. ;)
It'll make my blog a little bit more real and entertaining.

I thought this would be a good environment to start it off with.
It's me and Little Carley at the Saanich Fair talking about it, the new year, and other weird miscellaneous things. =P lol

Oh, and one thing that's majorly bad with the video itself is I decided to shoot it atop tall bleachers just as the sun was starting to set, which is very beautiful, but also there's a big shadow on my face, you can see, of my arm holding up the camera. So, now you can see the camera shape. It looks like an iPod. :P It's very small and portable, and AWESOME! :D

Anyway, it might be pretty distracting to some people, it was to me at first, but I wanted to still post this video up, because I like what's in it. :)

So, I hope you don't mind to much.
I'm still getting the hang of the vlogging thing, it is in fact, my first time! :P


Oh, and P.S. that's Carrie Underwood playing in the background.. just in case you were curious. lol

Saturday, September 5, 2009

Saanich Fair and the new school year.

I am beaming! :)

Saanich Fair this year was a hit! I had such a great time, on stage, with my friends. Seeing everyone. It was fantastic! :] I'm so pumped for the next time I get to perform! Which is pretty soon I think.

One thing I'm not particularly excited for it, school. O_O
I was, until I got my schedule. I don't think I'm to happy with it.
Maybe that means I should change some things about it. hmph.

Well tomorrow I'm going shopping with my mum! Haven't been shopping since, since... I don't even know when. It's not something I do all the time. I'm usually a seasonal shopper.
OH, but there was this summer when I was downtown all the time for gig's and I may have bought myself a few pretty things.. :P

But, other than that little slip up- seasonal shopper here.
This season? Fall, back to school.



I'm not even excited anymore.
I suppose I'll just have to make it exciting. ;)

Ttys - Karly. <3

Thursday, September 3, 2009




Actually no, that's a lie.
I'm just trying to express how I feel right now in figurative speech. :P

But, really, I am just, so happy.
Today, after I got home from seeing my friends and getting my schedule for the new school year (sigh), I decided to keep working on producing my latest song for my first record. The song I was working on is called Push. It seems to be a lot of people's favorites, so I'm glad that I decided to produce it next.

Man, I have never produced a song this fast before.
And it doesn't have as many tracks as they usually have. It's simple, but it's ..


If I do say so myself. ^_^
I'm sorry, someone has to! lol

I'm just super stoked about it. :D
It's the first time I've produced a song using both guitar and piano. In fact, it's the first time I've produced a song with guitar. Both the two songs I've produced are just piano. They were originally written on the piano. This song, Push was originally written on the guitar. So, naturally that's the instrument I'm going to focus on and start with first. But, once I had that track, I knew it was missing something. Some piano licks were just the thing! :)

I feel so, like.. Jason Reeves.
I've been listening to his album "The Magnificent Adventures of Heartache (And Other Frightening Tales...)" and I just love it. I love his style of music. I think that's what inspired me, or at least influenced the production of Push.

I gotta listen to his songs more often. :P

My favorite song right now (and it's Jason's) is "Pretty Eyes," from that album.
I love it.

I love piano and guitar together. Their just so darn good together! lol
It's good I've learned how to play both. =]

Well, I'm gonna go listen to it some more.
Tomorrow, after breakfast I can see myself going back and tweaking it.
Which is all good. ^_^

Goodnight everybody
(wow, I just realized that it's 12:01 AM)

Well, in that case, Good morning?


How's this .. BYE!


Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Building A Mystery Cover, now playing on YouTube. =P

Building A Mystery cover is now up on YouTube! :)

Hope you like it. =]

Goodnight everybody, xx K.

People Need That.

It's 10:24 AM and I am making muffins. 
Delicious, chocolate chip oatmeal muffins. :)
Things like this make the world a better place to be in. 

I went out and saw the movie "Julie & Julia" with my mum last night, like I said in my post before this. :P Well anyway, the muffins could quite possibly be inspired by that movie. But, maybe not, I woke up this morning and thought to myself, "I don't think I can handle another bowl of cereal... Muffins it is!"

The three breakfast's I rotate (but I usually have the cereal option) are Honey Bunches of Oats w Almonds, Nutella on toast, and muffins. 

... Why on earth am I talking about what my breakfast routine?

I am deeply sorry!

I guess I'm such a boring person that I actually think listing off what I usually have for breakfast is interesting at the slightest. O_O


Well, I'm feeling better, if that's anymore interesting to you.
I mean, jeeze, who reads this blog? Apparently quite a few people do because I have a collection of 1065 or so.. Man. 

It's pretty cool when I think about it.
I'd like to thank you. :)

I am feeling better today if you read yesterday's post. A couple of things were well.. not good. One of those things I feel better about.. the other?.. No progress, that I know of.

But I am keeping myself happy .. well happier, and occupied with other things. Like, I've just recently started riding my bike (well my mom's bike) around the neighborhood. I've realized just how much of a beautiful place we live in. It's beautiful. And getting out in it everyday I think is good for me. It's like the final exam essay in English I had to write. How nature can enrich people's lives. It takes them away from the daily routine. Gives them something fresh, beautiful and natural. People need that. 

I got 90% on that exam. ;)
ohh yeahh. ^_^

Well, the muffins are almost done, I can smell them.
Don't want to overdue them, again.. lol :P

Singing off,


Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Just, *sigh* one of those days.. :(

I'm not even going to try and hide my sadness today.

Today, is just one of those days.

I suppose, everyone is destined to have a few in their lifetime.

My time, has come.

But, I wouldn't really call it a bad day, where a bunch of freak things happen, like a car drives by and sprays water and mud all over you before .. a date, or something important. No, I'd call it a day where two bad things happened.

1. A falling out with a friend.

2. A complete mess-up by me, in the video shoot. So, the new Twilight song might be delayed.

Now, for the 2nd point, I can't decide if I'm just being too picky, but I KNOW that the last line, I didn't sing it the strongest. It's very weak and shaky, not a good way to end a strong song. So, my dad tried to fix it by, literally, cutting that part out. It's now.. too bad, but I don't think I like it either. And I know that I can sing it, I just didn't get a good take, I was rushing it and it didn't turn out good.

So, that's one of those.. music video's? YouTube video's.
Sometimes you don't everything right the first time.

We might reshoot.

We'll see..


I felt (still do to a degree) really crappy about it.
I'm such a perfectionist, and I'm obsessive compulsive. I actually watched an episode of Dr. Phil today, and ACTUALLY wrote down the tips for Managing Stress and Anxiety.

O_O yeah.

I'm kind of a freak.

The first point, well, since this isn't a real diary, it's a blog, and I do have a collection of 1000 views, I'll keep the person's name under wraps.

And I won't go into much detail of the situation. But, I'm just really upset and mad about it. I'm having this big fight with them, and uuggh, it's just getting out of hand.

I don't know if it'll ever be resolved. Because I still hold my side of the fight.
Everything I said was true. Hard, but very true.

I don't think they'll ever see that.

I've had a lot of things on my mind today, I didn't get much done, but I did clean our entire kitchen just to try and take my mind off of it. And watching Dr. Phil did help, I actually enjoy that show. I learn things. :P Things that I can use.

Tonight, I'm going to a movie with my mother. "Julie & Julia."
A nice, light hearted film supplied with popcorn, chocolate, and company should do me some good.


Just.. one of those days. lol

Singing off,