Sunday, February 21, 2010

The Little Things ☮

I'm happy to inform you that things seem to be looking up. :)

And it might just be because I've changed my mind set, but that's okay with me. After all, we are in charge of our own happiness, or at least that's what I like to believe. So now, I've finally taken that saying to heart and changed my way of thinking about things.

It could also have something to do with the good talk I had with my mum at the beginning of the long weekend. I guess sometimes venting on here just isn't enough.

But ANYWAY, this weekend was quite fun. :] I crossed #11 off my Bucket List (that's setting up the basketball hoop in the driveway and playing B-ball with the "neighborhoodlums"), went to Little Carley's 16th Birthday party and completed two school assignments.

Needless to say, it was indeed productive.

I had a lot of fun as well! =) It was beautiful all three days, and I really soaked it up. Acted like a solar panel to be quite frank. :P It reminded me how excited I truly am for Summer. I have officially decided- Summer is my favorite season hands down. Forget about Winter, Summer is where it's at! The sun, the fun, the friends, the festivals, the NO SCHOOL, the sleeping in... I could go on but it's probably your favorite too, you know the reasons. ;) haha.

One of the school assignments I had to complete was a Self Essay for English. It was due on Thursday, but here I was on Sunday sitting at my computer, waiting for a stroke of genius to be blessed upon me. When I was at school, I couldn't write anything to save my life. It was the weirdest thing actually. I pride myself on being a writer- or at least being able to write and enjoying writing- but this time I just froze. It could have been the environment and not being able to focus, or maybe it was the fact that... I HATE WRITING ESSAYS. Why? I. don't. know. I hate having to structure my writing. I like to let what I have to say just flow out in whatever form it happens to shape itself in, but of course with essays you cannot allow this. You must "prepare" and "organize" your thoughts before you begin AND shove a thesis and topic sentence in the first paragraph... blah, blah, blah, blah, BLAHH.


lol. So let's just say I was stuck. It wasn't working and for the majority of the long weekend I left it. It wasn't until today when I worked up enough courage to even entertain the idea of starting again. GROWL, were my thoughts exactly.

But, my mum gave me some advice, and I guess that's what she's good at because about two hours later I submerged from my bedroom and printed up my finished essay.


A huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders and it feels delightful.

So here, I give you the weight that I will be handing in tomorrow- late mind you, but I'm proud of it nonetheless.

=) What do you think?
I'm really happy with it, and I actually got to know myself better by writing it.

Well, I think that's all for now. I still have more homework to do.

x[ I know. It's depressing.

But I got the bulk of the work done, so don't feel too bad for me. ;P

Till next type!


Thursday, February 11, 2010

The List

Hi blog.

I know I've been kind of rude lately, ignoring you like this. But the thing is, I've been really busy. Now I know this sounds like a complete cop-out, but it's true. I have been busy with real things- things that you'd count. Like school and homework- actual, physical things. But there are also just the ins and outs of life that I have been busy with. And these seem to take up much more of my time lately.

Do you know what I mean?

In other words- I feel as though I'm thinking my life away.

I've always been one to love and admire quotes like:

"I figure life's a gift and I don't intend on wasting it. You don't know what hand you're gonna get dealt next. You learn to take life as it comes at you... to make each day count."


"The secret of health for body, mind and soul is to not mourn for the past, worry about the future, or anticipate troubles, but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly."

I completely agree with these mind sets, and only wish that I could be as adventurous as Jack from Titanic, or as wise as Buddha. I constantly tell myself to embrace these ways, the ways of life I truly believe in and really want to live mine by, but I just .... seem to end up not following through with it.

(the above was written on February 11th, 2010)
I decided to continue on writing the entry, because today's topic fit with that of the post before. Let's continues shall we?

Today; this is going to change. Because today, I have created my Bucket List.


You know what I'm talking about right? A Bucket List being a list of things one wants to do before they "kick the bucket" (die). Well, today in Social Studies SW me and three of my friends started writing ours. :]

It's really exciting actually! So far, I have 12 things on my list, and before I tell you what these things are, you should know that I made it a point to not write things like "get married" or "record first album" because those are types of things that I most likely would have done or would have already wanted to do with or without my Bucket List. The types of things I am including in my list are adventurous, random and fun experiences.

... Or at least, they are to me! :P

Click on picture to enlarge.

So there you have it. The beginning of what I hope to keep forever, to constantly be adding to and of course COMPLETING! =P

*Cheers to a lifetime of adventurous experiences!*


OH! When my friends and I made these bucket list's today, we also agreed to certain "terms" of the list.

#1 We're going to carry our list's with us wherever we go, in case inspiration strikes and we need to add something before we forget.

#2 We can "challenge" each other to add certain activities to our lists. As long as they aren't defying any laws of physics or completely stupid and/or ridiculous.

#3 In the last week before summer break, we are going to gather outside Belmont on the back field and compare our lists. This will be a perfect time for some of the "challenging" to occur.

And the obvious rule,

#4 You MUST complete your list!

You must make everything you write on your list, a reality! So...

Tip #1) Write awesome things on your list! :P

I'm really excited about the whole idea, and am glad that I've created one at this point in my life. After all:

"Life is a journey, not a destination."
(Cause we all know what the destination is...)

. . . Karly

Thursday, February 4, 2010

I set myself up.

Well. I don't have to decide anymore.

Someone decided for me.

Now, I can just be sad instead.


Another family bought her. Out of the five puppies that were there, they liked the same one we did. Even though my mom says they were a nice family, I'm still extremely sad about it. I didn't even get to see her again. We were planning to this weekend together. My mom went this morning to see her, but at that exact same time frame another lady did as well.

So long story short: she's gone.

I was actually a bit surprised to react the way that I did. I was legitimately very sad. We've been discussing her all week and it seemed like such a reality. Like we were most likely going to end up with this new addition to our lives. I was so excited about, and as soon as I heard someone else was interested in her, I knew she was gone.

Now that I know were not getting her, the silver linings seem to be irrelevant. Now I have lots of money to spend on other things, now I'll have more time for other things...

Right now; at this moment, all of that seems a million times more lame. I don't even know what to do with myself now because I thought I'd be training her and walking her and just... enjoying something that wasn't so materialistic.

This felt like something that could broaden my horizons as a person. Enrich my life and bring us joy. The alternative to that is " I can buy an iPhone."


It just sucks.

I'm really, quite frankly just extremely let down.

I never should have dangled that in front of my own face.

I set myself up for disappointment.

Monday, February 1, 2010

Hey Decisions! I hate you.


I'm back. I haven't been blogging hardly at all lately, and I miss it! There's something about it that I like better then physically writing in a journal. Maybe it's that I can share it with people, and exchange ideas. Or maybe it's that I can use photos to accompany text. OR it might just be that if I make a mistake, I don't have the dishonorable duty of drawing a big fat line across the incorrect word or statement. PLUS, typing is much faster. :-P

Well, whatever it is, it feels good to be back. =)

It's February first and there's a bit going on. A few new things, surprises, and one thing that I have to do that I hate most of all.

And that's making a DECISION. O_o

Really, I admit it, most of the time I am terrible at deciding on things. I'm not terrible at making decisions, because I usually make the right choice. It just takes me an immeasurable amount of time to make them. And in this scenario- the one I'm about to explain to you, time is of the essence.

You see, the day before school started up again (yesterday) my mum and I wondered into a Pet Store. I was originally looking for a kitten, a little like minded furry companion for Louie (my cat of four years) because he's been quite lonely and bored ever since my first dog Tuffy, died 2 years ago. He's been friendless. I look at it like he's an only child. It's not fair! I try to play with him, but I can only whip around a string for so long before we both get bored of it.

So, my original plan was to get another cat. I could just imagine them playing together, keeping each other company. It would be cute, and I don't care if it makes me look like a cat person!

Anyway, those were my intentions. But the outcome was much different.


Long story short, now I want a dog. A certain puppy that we both fell in love with that day through the thick glass window. She's a scruffy little thing with the most adorable, quite and gentle personality.

I mean, just look at her! ->


I was tossing and turning since 5:00 this morning, thinking about the whole situation. Just a few days ago I was in a completely different mind set, but now since I've seen her I can't get her out of my mind. And not just her, I can't stop mulling it over and over again in my head- wether or not getting a dog is the right decision for right now.

It's driving me insane ! !

To add to the madness, I feel like I have a time limit. Someone else could buy her before I even make my decision! I don't know how I would feel if that happened. I'd feel sad, that's for sure.

Ugh, life is funny that way. You never know what's going to happen next. I certainly never saw this coming. It was a surprise. A cute, furry, dangerously adorable surprise.

And here I am again. With yet another decision needed to be made.



You expected me to come up with a brilliant revelation by the end of this post?

As if.

I don't feel even close. It's all... up in the air right now.

I guess for now I'll just have to find the smart, responsible, grown up inside of me and carefully think about what buying this puppy would mean, and how it would effect my life. INSTEAD of doing what my heart tells me. (Which is running off to that pet store this very second and bringing her home).


Is that revelationy enough for you?

Well, more to come from the life of an indecisive girl making decisions. *Chuckle* Oh the irony!

Singing off,