Good News & Bad News

Hey!

Alright, I have good news and bad news. But the bad news isn't really that bad, depending on how much you enjoy reading my blog, or if you even read it at all. =P

Anyway, I'll tell you the "bad" news first, because then after the good news just cancels it out! ... right? lol.

So the bad news is I bought Twilight Journals over the weekend.

Why is this bad? Well, because I'm actually starting to use them and that means I won't be writing in my Blog nearly as often. So far, I've been writing in these journals every day. And I'm actually enjoying it. I have so much more freedom in writing in a physical journal. I can draw, and I can say ANYTHING.

MWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

=3

Fun fact: I still use emoticons when I write. =P

So, expect a bit less of my entry's over the next.. while. Well, however long it takes me to fill the pages of.. all four journals. Ha.. sorry? I'll visit! I will though! I'll still write in this blog, just not as often. I'll write about more interesting things to, not just my stupid thoughts. :P

Like, this next announcement- The good news!

*NEW MUSIC VIDEO! WEWT!

NOTE: The video is cut off on the right. If you'd like to watch the full version click here.

I thought this song would be perfect to cover. It's my little present to you! ^-^

I hope you like it! =]

Tty .. maybe not so soon. =P

I'll be back, EVENTUALLY!

--K

The Past Week in Pictures

Seasons greetings! *

A lot of good things have been happening lately, and it's making me feel (you guessed it) GOOD! =P I was feeling pretty down up until about a week or so ago, and now I'm feeling quite positive.

This is a very good thing.

I might be in the clear. ;) And I mean really, how can I be down at this time of year? All the lights and decorations, the hot chocolate and gingerbread men, the warmest feeling around- even though it's the coldest outside. It's great! =) There's certainly nothing like Christmas time!

The two greatest seasons for me are Summer and Winter. Summer for summer break (that's the obvious one), swimming, busking, festivals and family visiting. :) Winter for the warmth, snow, that magical feeling, presents and again, family visiting! =]

I'm so excited for my cousins to come out this Christmas! And for some of them, it's our very first Christmas spent in the same province. Our first one together.. and so, it's going to be the best one yet. FOR SURE :D There has been lots of preparing for this Christmas, and the only thing I haven't done yet is.. bought presents. ._. I know it's really last minute, but I have to do that this weekend. First I have to figure out what I'm getting everyone- and that's going to be a task on it's own.

But alas, I can do it!

That kind of seems like my motto lately. =P The only thing stopping me, is me. That's what I like to think anyway. ;)

ANYWAY, I wanted to post a few pictures of some of the happenings of the past week or so in this entry. GET READY, because I underestimated how many photo's there were. Enough to start a photo album on Facebook, that's for sure. But I like putting them here. :-) You, the readers of my personal blog, deserve to see them more. So, enjoy! =3

NOTE: Click to enlarge any picture.

Our Journey begins upon the 10th of December...

My mum and I decorated the Christmas tree very traditional this year. =]

On the 11th I played at the Bay Center for the Mustard Seed (Food Bank) for the 2nd time in the food court...

And got a great response from the "audience." :)

After, we ran into Annika and Mario, my two biggest fans! =)

And after loading my gear into the van, me and my mum had time for some shopping. :]

On the 13th, we went out to the Keg to celebrate my Dad's 49th Birthday.

The food was SPECTACULAR (yes, that's right) and so was the company. =]

ALSO, the cake was AMAZING. O_o Seriously, probably the best cake I've ever had.

^-^

On December 14th it snowed! This made almost everyone happy. =P

On the 16th, one day short of being one month after my 16th birthday, I got my L. Well, in this picture you see me sitting at the test machine completing the test...

And in this picture, you clearly see that we both passed. (Me and my brother) Although, I was just slightly more excited than he was. :P

Later that same day, we filmed the new music video (that's being put on YouTube this weekend) for my version of White Christmas. :]

It's definitely the most elaborate video we've done so far. From types and amounts of different camera angles to just the "set" alone.

And, there you have it! The past week summed up in .. 14 pictures! lol. You can probably tell by these pictures that it's been quite busy lately, and it has. But it's been a really fun week. :] A really happy week! ^-^

NOTE #2: This blog entry took me so long to type up and add all the pictures, it took me a span over two days to do it. Here's two pictures added from the extra day..

The last few days of school were a breeze. We didn't do much work, and it was mostly just fun Christmas stuff. Like in Cooking we made gingerbread men... see! (below)

As for today, the last day of school before the break, I ended up only going to one class. Instead of going to second block I went to the mall with my friends and shopped for last-minute Christmas presents. It was quite dandy! ^-^

So, it's been pretty great lately. I'm finally getting the Christmas vibe, feeling jolly and all. ;) And school's out! So I have so much more time!

Well, I hope you enjoyed this unorganized entry. I'll write another (better) one soon!

Signing off,

K

YES I CAN!

Hello again!

Just wanted to write a blog post to organize my thoughts and goals. I feel like I've got quite a big helping on my plate right now, and I'm just not sure how to attack it. =P

First) There's my music. Which always comes somewhere near the very beginning of my thought process. And right now, what I'm thinking about is my first album. I've finished producing 3 songs (almost 4) that of which includes You'll Never Know, Rewind, Push and Play It Again is the one I'm almost done. It just needs some tweaking. So timeline wise, I'm pretty much on schedule, but I'd like to pick up the pace a bit. You see, I still have to record the harmony's for Rewind, and all the vocals and guitar for Push and Play It Again. At this point I'm just done doing all the Garageband work for those songs. Their still technically not finished. So that worries me just a tad, for I still have 6 more songs to complete by this May (June at the latest).

O_o

I can do that right?

Yes, I CAN...

I CAN!

And I must! And besides, not all of the songs have to be completely or overly produced. Just the main ones. I was even thinking of doing some more acoustic songs. Maybe with just a little strings, or electric guitar. Hmm.. I'm gonna play around with them. But I've decided that at the least, there are 7 songs that must be fully produced. And they are:

1) You'll Never Know

2) Rewind

3) Push

4) I Can Hear You

5) Stay Strong

6) Goody Two Shoes

7) Play It Again

And those are the songs I'm working on getting done right now. Then after that, I have to decide the 3 songs that also make it onto the record. And produce those! When I'm doing that, that'll be the home stretch. Actually.. maybe not just yet.

8)

9)

10)

After I'm done those 3 I will have completed my 10 song CD. =D And after that all there is left to do is choose and make the acoustic versions of two songs. That will be easy, and fun! ^.^

So there's my game plan for my album. Now I just have to stick with it and get 'er done! So far it's been pretty fun, but things have slowed down dramatically because of my illness (don't worry, just the common cold) and ..

SCHOOL =O

AAAHHH! I know. -_-

It's starting to get to me again. It just seems to be in the way! And it doesn't help that I'm starting to fall behind. =( With math (which was a given) and social studies (BIG TIME). I really have to pull it together. Not for me, but for my music. If I get too behind, juggling everything plus extra homework is going to be a struggle. Heck, I feel like I'm struggling already as it is! I mean, I'm okay with falling behind in school and getting a lesser grade because of it, but I'm definitely not okay with falling behind on my album and having to delay the release.

Which is why I must hold it together. And not go insane during the process.

I need to work really hard.

... Great! Nothing says buckling down and working hard like Christmas. x_x

But actually, the break from school helps a lot! In fact, I produced You'll Never Know during last years Winter break, which is what inspired this whole project! =]

=o Oh man, I produced You'll Never Know.. a year ago. O.o

Hm. =\

Well anyway, I just have to stay positive, motivated and hard working.

I've done enough slacking lately, and come to think of it, maybe that's one of the things that's been getting me down. I always feel better when I do something productive. I guess I hate being lazy, even though I can be sometimes.

Well, I think I've taken up a pretty good portion of your day, so that's all for now!

I'll check in soon, hopefully to report some progress.

Signing off,

Karly S

I like this new hobby I've discovered; "Reading."

Hello, once again.

Today while I was laying on my bed, being old fashioned and reading a book, something occurred to me. I realized why people read books, and why people like reading books. It's because for one: Reading a book is a completely different experience then any other form of entertainment. It's certainly the most private, and it's just plain text. It leaves so much for the reader to create and visualize how they want the story to be portrayed. Unlike a movie experience. And the most pressing reason, for myself personally, is: It gives you a break from your own life. It's so relaxing and calming to sit down with a book and be taken to an entirely different place. Someone else's life, with their thoughts and their problems, and their reality. One that is not your own.

It really is the ultimate way to breathe. The alternative to breathing.

I just really realized this about an hour or less ago, when I was reading this book that I bought this weekend. When I had nothing to do. --Wait, scratch that. When I didn't want to do anything. Cause the truth is, I had plenty of things to do. There are always plenty of things to do, it's just a matter of having the desire to do these things. And sometimes, nothing seems like a viable option. Or one good enough.

Anyway, I underestimated the power of a good read. I also underestimated the power of a good read that isn't Twilight. =P If you've been reading my blog, or even just know me personally, you should know by now that I heart Twilight. <3>

The book that I'm currently reading, and the one that triggered this mini epiphany is called "It's kind of a funny story" By Ned Vizzini. So far, the title reads true; it is a funny story- if you find depression funny.

Actually, it's kind of a coincidence because when I was browsing the bookstore, I was in a pretty depressed state, and at first I didn't pick it out. What I did pick out, instinctively, was a New Moon Movie Companion. That I spotted straight away. But it took me the second time around the same bookshelf to come across this paperback novel. And finally opening up and even giving any attention to a book that isn't apart of the Twilight Series. I'd hate to say I was being closed minded- but I guess you can just decide that for yourself.

I like this new hobby I've discovered.

"Reading"

=P

I think I'll be doing that more often. :)

Every now and then it's good to get away. And living in Canada during the winter months cancels out escaping on a bike all year round. So, books will have to suffice for the time being.

If anyone has any good book recommendations, leave me a shout out! I need a good.. ohh.. five or so month supply. ;)

Signing off,

K

"I feel like I'm loosing my way."

"Hello."

"hi ._."

"How have you been lately?"

"... uhh, do you want me to be honest?"

"Yes."

".. kind of depressed.."

"=o Why?"

"Do you want me to be honest, again?"

"Yes!! =["

"..*sigh*.. because I lost my best friend and something that usually makes me feel better isn't making me feel better anymore."

"Oh. :("

"I feel like I'm loosing my way."

"O_O ='("

"I'm sorry, I didn't have to drag you into this."

..

"Hello? ._."

"HELLO?"

--Your probably wondering what on earth that was. Well, it was just my more creative way of informing you how I'm doing right now. But really, it was just me venting. I mean, I should be able to have some fun with my depression.. Yes, I'm admitting it. I'm pretty depressed. I think I have been for a few months now.. on and off possibly. Things that I used to love to do, even thrive on doing, don't seem to have that same effect on me anymore. Like I said before, it feels like I'm loosing my way.

._. And obviously, this is not a good thing.

So, the question is.. can it be fixed? ..Can I be fixed?

Well, I SURE HOPE SO! X_x

I'm not expecting on living my entire life like this.. It's starting to really get in the way with important things...

I can't cope with it anymore.

Something must be done.

..And I know that it's up to me to do it.

>_<

Spurt of Extreme Busyness

Well! The spurt of extreme busyness is now over. It ended with a bang I think. :-) At the 10:00 showing of New Moon (The Twilight Sequel). Which was really good! :) And I'm glad it was good because we waited for grand total of FIVE HOURS in line. ._.

NOTE: It was raining almost the entire time and VERY cold.

& that's my umbrella tie in front of my face. :P

Me & Heather, who got me into Twilight in the 1st place! :)

NOTE: This was right before the big unveiling, we were SUPER EXCITED.

I know. You could call us freaks, and maybe that's what we are for doing that, but it actually wasn't so bad. Although, I did get out of waiting for a good hour and a half for a gig I had already agreed to doing. My friend Eryn Sharpe (who is an amazing singer) asked if I wanted to play at her school's fundraiser, and of course I said yes. It was a lot of fun. :] The response that night was REALLY good. People were so nice there! And their school is too.. lol, compared to my high school. =P

I didn't get home that night till about 1:00 AM, so needless to say I was BEAT. And I was not looking forward to getting up early the next morning to write a math test. SO I stayed home. The reason for me doing that would obviously be to sleep in because of loss of sleep, BUT that wasn't exactly the case. Luckily for me, I wasn't aloud to sleep in because it just happened to be the day when we were getting our furnace fixed. ._.

You know how loud getting your furnace fixed is?

IT'S LOUD. >-<

So, I've been kind of in a daze all day. Just kind of going through the motions.. on autopilot, or zombie mode. lol

The night before yesterday was the Kelly Clarkson concert, and that was awesome too! I went with my mum and my friend Carley, and really, she is such a good singer. My favorite song she performed was a cover she did called "Lies." It was a blues song, and it was a perfect choice for her voice. [That rhymed] She's also very down to earth, really natural and sweet on stage, and that was great to see. =)

Me and Carley, before she came on.

Her stage set up was really good. Lights were awesome.

Car, me and my mum after the show!

As for the day that started this whole fun, busy streak: My 16th Birthday! It was great. :] In the morning I slept in and went out for breakfast with my brother and my mum. Which was extra delicious I might add! ^-^

As you can see, I got extra EXTRA whipped cream on my pancakes. TEEHEE =D

After I got back from my half day of school we went out to dinner at our favorite restaurant (Little Thai Place), my mum made me a cupcake cake (Which was the cutest and the yummiest!) and I got great gifts from everyone. =) Like my mum got this big wooden letter K and got everyone to sign it. :] I love it. <3

<3

So that sums up the events of the past three days. Thought I should catch up on my blogging in one giant post. :-)

After I post this entry I'm gonna type up my first set of lyrics for my 2nd blog I've created. It's specifically made just for my lyrics. I thought it would be a good idea to have them all in one place. If you want to check it out it's www.ks-lyrics.blogspot.com :)

And that's all for now folks!

I'm hoping to get a lot of things done this weekend, so I probably won't blog then either. But stay posted, I'll never stop blogging. :]

Signing off,

K

Last entry as a 15 year old. =P

Hey everyone!

Feels like it's been ages since I wrote last. And figuratively speaking it almost would have been if I hadn't taken the time to write up an entry today. Why? Because you see..

Tomorrow is my birthday! =o :D

Hooray! ^-^

It's most exciting to be turning 16. I had my birthday party this past Saturday, which was a hoot. =P lol Didn't get any pictures though, that's the only thing I'm disappointed about. =[ I mean, I did get some video's, which is good, but I totally blanked and skipped over the whole "gather around the cake kids and capture a memory" part. I mean, just that one, because I get that every year. And now there's a big blank hole in the place of where my 16th Birthday party picture should be.

x[

lol.

It's just a little sad.

But hey! Tomorrow's my REAL birthday, and I'm gonna make it a point to take pictures. :) I mean, my friend Heather got me a photo album, I need something to start it off!'

Today was a rather good day, even though that's very contradicting to the way it started off. I was not happy this morning. It was darker than usual- which didn't help how tired I was, my throat was soar, and I was really detesting even going to school. It was one of those days when the alarm clock goes off and you just lye there for 10 minutes thinking of how amazing and easy it would be to just not get up and not go. Maybe one day, I'll actually do that.

But the reason I didn't today was because it's my birthday tomorrow, and it sounded like the perfect day to do whatever I want. I've been considering sleeping in, skipping the first two blocks, and possibly only showing up for lunch with my friends and Drama. Wouldn't that be GRAND?! ^-^

Answer: Yes, yes it would.

But there is a math quiz I'll be missing.. I guess I can make it up later..

Hmph.

Well, we'll see..

This week's gonna be crazy, hectic and AWESOME.

Tuesday- My 16th Birthday!

Wednesday- Invisalign app., Choir Rehearsal, Kelly Clarkson Concert

Thursday- Performance at a School dance, and then to end it all..

THE NEW MOON PREMIERE!

AAAAAHHHHH!!! =O =O :D :D :D

Don't judge me.

;) =P

So, if you didn't catch that already, I am STOKED for the events that are about to unfold. It's gonna be EPIC. =D

I'll blog about it. :-)

And take pictures! I won't forget ever again! ;)

Type you when I type you,

K

Oh! I did happen to get this one picture of my birthday cake :) ..

It's the best birthday cake to date I'd say. =) I love it, thanks mom. <3>

Signing off for real this time,

Karly.

I Will Remember

Today at school, we had the Remembrance Day Ceremony.

Before the assembly, I remember a lot of kids moaning and complaining about how boring it was going to be, and a lot of kids just ditched. But I wasn't one of those kids. To be honest, I wasn't thinking it was going to be especially intriguing, but I wasn't not going to go.

It started off like any other Remembrance Day Assembly I can remember. The singing of the National Anthem, a reading of "In Flanders Fields," a moment of silence. It wasn't until the special guest started speaking, when the mood of the gym drastically changed.

The special guest was a Holocaust survivor.

Both of his parents were murdered in concentration camps, along with many other members of his family. They were Jewish, as was he, and that's all it took for them to loose every human right that ever existed.

People say that he was lucky. To have survived it. And he was, but when you think about it... we are the lucky ones. We have no idea what it was like, to live in that time, to be in that situation. To be thrown into a life where we have no choice, no freedom, no safety.

Even though I can understand what happened then, and what happened to that man, I can never truly fathom how that would feel. How it would feel for that to be my reality.

It's hard to believe something like that actually took place. It's always been told to us, or read to us- like a story. But today, that man made it real.

A lot of emotions ran high in that room, including mine.

Now I am sure,

I will remember.

Note: Always make room for good times. ;)

:)

Hi ya'll!

I'm quite happy right now. Even though some things are still not right in my books, at this very moment, I am quite content. :]

I don't know what it is... It could be that it's the beginning of a new month, so I feel refreshed. Or it could be that I had a good day today. Whatever it is, I like it, so I'm just gonna go with it. :)

Exciting things are coming up this month and the next. This month, in November, I have my 16th Birthday on the 17th (WOOT WOOT =]), the Kelly Clarkson concert with my mum and my friend Carley, a performance at a school dance/silent auction and the NEW MOON MOVIE NIGHT SHOWING. (AAAAAAHHHH!)

There's so much awesomeness happening this month I CAN'T EVEN HANDLE IT. =P

And THEN, to keep going on a roll, in December I'm playing at the Bay Center multiple times for the Spirit Of Giving. Which is so fun because I love the atmosphere the mall has in December. All the lights and decorations, people shopping for others, and not just themselves. It's so wonderful! :) I LOVE Christmas time. =]]

Also that month, my cousins are coming to visit for Christmas, and that makes me WAY TO FREAKING HAPPY. :) It'll be the first Christmas (in a long time anyway) with everyone together. And for that, I am so excited.

Sure the weather's cold and dark but everything else is the opposite. Maybe that's why the Holidays are at this time of year. Trying to compensate for the lack of sun and warmth. lol Who knows!

Hm, I guess that's why I'm so happy. =P

There's so many things to be happy about! So many things to look forward to.

............

As for now, I'm working on building my set list for these gig's coming up, continuing on my journey of recording my first album, and keeping up with school.

When I think about it, those are the 3 most important things to be focusing on right now. Well, the 3 most important things to be working on. Along with those things, there's life. That's needing to make room for friends and family (especially during Christmas) and the good times! :]

Note: Always make room for good times. ;)

And I guess I'll leave it at that!

I think that's a good note to end it on. =)

--Karly.

*P.S. - To see the dates and info for the gig's I've mentioned in this blog, click HERE.

Just forget the world

If I lay here,

If I just lay here,

Would you lie with me and

just forget the world?

Yesterday/Black And White

Okay.. well, I've written another song this week. This one's finished. And it's pretty good in my books- but that could be just because I love new material. :P

The entire song is with picking, it's slow, and my hand goes into a cramp when I play it on some tries. lol "No pain, no gain," I suppose.

Right off the bat I was just gonna call it Yesterday. But really, how could I compete with the Beatles? And when I think about it, there's probably tons of songs with that name. Along with Breathe, and anything to do with Rain. Which I, proudly, have not written such a song. ^-^ Well, at least not titled that. ;)

Any who, it's still in the decision process. It's either gonna be Yesterday, or I'm leaning more towards Black And White. See what you think..

******

I never thought that it could be like this

And I never thought that you could be like this

We were more than this, it used to seem

Lets pretend it's worth it, but honestly

It's so black and white

All the colors seem to fade to grey

I'm losing fight

for all we used to have yesterday

It's not okay

It's not okay

It's not okay

I'm not okay , it's not like it was yesterday.

Can't you see that all you were is left to me?

Can't you tell that all you do is for them, and not for you?

Why did you have to change for the worst?

Cause I don't know, I just don't know if it can be reversed

Your so black and white

All your colors seemed to fade to grey

I'm losing fight

for all we used to have yesterday

It's not okay

It's not okay

It's not okay

I'm not okay , it's not like it was yesterday.

You did say

you couldn't live without me

Then why do you try?

Why do you try so damn hard?

And now..

It's black and white

Cause all your colors seemed to fade to grey

Seems like were losing sight

of all we used to have yesterday

And that's not okay

It's not okay

That's not okay

I'm not okay, I'm not like I was yesterday.

*****

Oh, and you probably noticed that there was swearing in it once, again. Same with the last song I posted. Their both about the same person, the same circumstance. I guess it's what works me up. But, I don't think damn is much of a swear word anymore. I think it's the lightest one. I'm not even going to bother censoring it. lol

So that's all for tonight.

I'm very tired. And tomorrow's Halloween! I'll be staying up PRETTY late. :D

I is excited! =]

Type to you soon, more song lyrics and thoughts to come. :]

--Karl.

Rough lyrics

I meant to practice my set list for this gig I have on November 1st, but I ended up writing a song. Not surprising, I'm such a procrastinator and have a talent for finding something better to do. ;) Or at least, it always seems like it's better at the time.

These lyrics are really rough. Haven't edited them yet, I'll get to it soon enough. I just had this urge to post them, so here I am; and here they are:

Where did I leave you last?

Did I leave you in the past, did I?

Cause something here has changed

but I don't want to point my finger any which way

I feel like coming out

and I really just wanna talk about this

But tell me, tell me- is it really even worth it?

Cause if you ask me I'm fine

It's this illusion of mine

And all I wanted

was to see if we were

worth it, ever

It used to be so nice

we never even had one fight, you know

Now it's like pulling teeth

trying to get you to speak to me

And all those things you said

did you ever really even mean them?

Cause some things I did

but some things, I didn't.

Cause if you ask me I'm fine

It's this illusion of mine

And all I wanted

was to see if we were

worth it, ever

**Random catchy alternate chorus, or possible bridge below..

Because the s**t that you've done

is digging a hole

Sometimes its best to move on

or just let go

I don't know

But one things for sure

I'm losing hope.

And that's all folks.

xx Singing off - Karly oo

P.S.- First usage of a swear word in my writing. lol

Out of the doubt that fills my mind..

...

The dawn is breaking

A light shining through

You're barely waking

And I'm tangled up in you, yeah

I'm open, you're closed

Where I follow, you'll go

I worry I won't see your face

Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes

Even the wrong words seem to rhyme

Out of the doubt that fills my mind

I somehow find you and I collide

I'm quiet you know

You make a first impression

I've found I'm scared to know

I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes

Even the stars refuse to shine

Out of the back you fall in time

I somehow find you and I collide

Don't stop here

I lost my place

I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes

Even the wrong words seem to rhyme

Out of the doubt that fills your mind

You finally find you and I collide

You finally find you and I collide

You finally find you and I collide

...

And so the Journey begins!

Today was quite an interesting, and different, day!

I GOT BRACES.

=0 AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

Okay, okay, calm down. I did technically get braces, but their not your typical metal, brace face braces. Their "invisalign aligners." Their well, their invisible. I suppose the name speaks for itself. This morning, at precisely 9:45 AM, I tried on my first pair, and it went a little something like this...

^Putting in the bottom tray.

^Feeling them out, with the top tray in as well.

They felt SO weird. But I mean really, what do you expect? It is in fact putting a plastic mold that is slightly different then my teeth, on my teeth! That's got to feel weird. I have them in right now, and I'm getting used to it, but when I took them out before dinner (because your supposed to take them out every time you eat or drink anything that isn't water) it actually caused me pain. It really hurt man! I have to take them out again tonight, to brush my teeth, and sheesh! I hope it doesn't hurt as bad! :(

It should only get better though. It's just like when people go in to get their braces tightened. These are my first ones, their gonna be tight. They shouldn't be so bad by.. let's say Thursday. Give it two days.

I also got to watch this video of how they'll change over the next TWO YEARS, yes I know. That's a long time, but to me, time's been flying pretty fast lately. Months go back like *that,* so two years should be a breeze. ;)

-I'm trying to think positive about them okay! >_<

It'll be worth it though, because look at the supposed before and after pictures! =D

BEFORE

(the way they are now)

AFTER

Also as you can probably tell the before picture is pretty sketchy. It's way worse quality than the after, I actually paused the video and took a picture of it. All I had was the video!

But I think you get the idea.

It's pretty exciting I think. =) I won't know what to do with straight teeth though. They've been like this my whole life, with just gradually getting worse. That's the entire reason I felt like I had to get them fixed. If I didn't do something about them now, they'd just get worse. And trust me, they were. It wasn't pretty. But now, all I have to do is wait.. and endure the hassle and pain of having these weird plastic tooth coverings on 22 out of the 24 hours a day.

O_O

But it's all good! It'll all be worth it.. 2 years from now. O_o

lol.

Thanks mom and dad! I could have used them a little sooner..

but I'm glad I have them now. =]

I REALLY appreciate it. =D

And that's all for today folks!

Click on later. =]

-Karlial

P.S. - And so the journey to straight teeth begins! ^-^ It's gonna be a bumpy ride.. =P

Ongoing Epiphany

Hello there.

Well, this weekend was highly unproductive. Also highly uneventful. I can honestly say that the only things I did was I cleaned my room, did laundry, finished homework, sat around, watched a movie with my mum, played my guitar but didn't finish any set list of any kind or finish any songs, and I watched Sarah McLachlan's Afterglow Live DVD. Oh, and yesterday, while cleaning my room I watched Paramore's Final RIOT concert DVD.

And that is all. ._.

It sounds like a bit when I list it all off like that, but I didn't even leave the house. It's a little sad. Unless you count Friday as apart of the weekend. Cause then the only time I left the house was when we went to the SlipKnot concert, and to WhiteSpot before.

I always set aside the weekend's for cleaning and being productive with my music. The cleaning happens, just not the productive music part.. ._.

It doesn't sound good does it? No.

I always dwell on it too. It's quite a funny cycle I've got going. =P

I mean, I certainly don't do this every weekend, but lately, I feel like I've been in a bit of a rut. So to speak. I've been really.. tense. Like, I can't relax. It's kind of weird. I keep thinking about the future. Like, that's all I do these days. I guess, when I don't do something that's helping me with my future, I don't feel good..

It's weird.

I'm like, obsessed with it. Obsessed with not letting life pass me by. Which is ironic, because when I dwell on the future like that, that's exactly what I'm doing.

Buddha once said..

"The secret of health for body, mind and soul is not to mourn for the past, worry about the future, or anticipate troubles. But to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly."

And that's what I keep telling myself to start doing, but I think now, I just have to.. let it be. And maybe this is just my personality. Everyone has their quirks..

But I know, when I was younger of course, I never thought of the future. Well, I did, but I just didn't think of it like I do now. The way that I think of it now is, one day, I'll be 30. And then I'll be 50. And I'm more than halfway through my life. I just hope that when I'm more than halfway through my life I'll have accomplished something.

And that's what i keep trying to do right now.

Accomplish something. And not just with my music, but as a person.

I don't want it to go fast. And in those younger years, when I was 12, it wasn't going fast. But now, it feels like it is. I mean, I'm almost out of school, and that's kind of a scary thing to realize. Cause when you've graduated, that's a huge changing point in your life. Everything starts changing, rapidly I think.

I guess that's what's making me tense lately.

I'm just going through the in's and out's of everyday life, sometimes thinking there should be more. Especially when we only have so much time.

I mean, anything can happen.

And until then, we gotta live it up.

This is my on-going epiphany.

What? I've got to vent somewhere.

Singing off,

--K