Tuesday, April 27, 2010

you're not alone.

Hm. . .

I want to write an entry right now, but I don't know what to say. Actually, that's a lie. I have something to say, but I can't decide if it's being too personal. I mean, I pride myself on telling the truth in my blogs, and I do- but there is that barrier, that line between what I would write for everyone to see, and what I should keep to my personal, physical journals.


Well, I think I'll attempt it- but I'm going to be as vague as I possibly can. No specifics, no names.

It's actually about blogging itself, and people I know who participate in it. For me, blogging is a way to vent, to let my thoughts and feelings escape somewhere, if not in conversation to an actual living person... who can respond... then to an inanimate object that has no choice but to listen, and record.

Now, it seems it's turned into something bigger, something more relevant. It's now changed from just a personal hobby of mine, to a looking glass into other people's lives. A window into their feelings and hardships, outlooks and well.. things I never would have known if it weren't for their mutual habit of making sense of it, typing it all out and publishing it for me, and anyone else who is interested, to see.

The only difference it seems, between their posts and my posts, is they let everything out. One of them even writes entries as if they were talking to a certain person in their life and even names that person. This someone, is a lot more thoughtful and grounded then I ever could have imagined. Their blog is making me see them in a completely different light... their blog is making them more relatable and familiar to me.

It's crazy.

Things I never would have known- and possibly shouldn't know- I do now.

It's funny- we see people in our everyday lives, doing everyday things, having everyday small talk with other everyday people- but we never really stop and think what it could be like for them... how things have played out in their lives- let alone, what their thinking. People who are weird, or maybe just the quiet ones who you don't really question, but just accept that their that way and don't think that there could be more to it than that.

Much, much more.

To have accessed such a thing that gives me this insight is (like I said before) crazy.

So, to those who feel hurt, rejected, happy, sad, unimaginative, embarrassed, inspired, curious, depressed, misunderstood- or even all of that all rolled into one- perhaps, you should join the blogging community.

And perhaps, you should discover that you're not alone.

Sunday, April 25, 2010

"We're best friends, you see."

Okay, I give up.

I miss mixing my song lyrics with my blog posts. ><

I made another blog, as you may already know, called "K S LYRICS," but it just isn't as much fun as letting the lyrics play out in my life events as they naturally would.

So, I'm going to start posting lyrics on here again.

Since I've been writing a lot lately (songs I mean) that would actually give some bulk to this blog, because I haven't been posting as near as often as I used to. I'm down to two on average per month.

This makes me sad! :(

I'm going to make a conscious effort to blog more frequently.

That's two things that I plan to do. =o

Another thing that I plan to do is, participate in the semi-annual (it seems) Coffee House at my high school. If you don't know what I'm talking about, it's like an open mic for students at my school, held in various places in said school. Such as this time it's the cafeteria- which isn't as bad as it sounds, they bring out couches, a stage and everything! It's quite cute. :)

I was going to attempt to play piano (since I've been playing and writing so much on it lately), but I've chickened out at the last minute. To be quite frank with you, I'm nervous about it, and performing with piano is a big step for me. I don't want to add more stress than I need to, so I'm sticking to my first instrument, and that is guitar.

We're best friends, you see.

Piano and I, well, we're still getting acquainted.


Now that I've decided I'm just playing guitar, I need to re-think my set list. I need four or five songs... I'm thinking newer ones, just because that would be more interesting for my friends.

... and me :]


  1. Something Again
  2. It's Been Too Many
  3. You'll Never Know
And for the fourth one, I feel it should be more... happy? :P More upbeat.

Maybe.. I Can Hear You.

So that would probably look something like:
  1. You'll Never Know
  2. Something Again
  3. I Can Hear You
  4. It's Been Too Many
Hm. =\

Well that's all I've got for now.

I'll blog later, look forward to some new lyrics! :)

Signing off,

Saturday, April 17, 2010


Hey you.

How have you been?

I've been pretty good. As of late, I've been realizing some things.

One of these things would be my record.

I have finally given in, and accepted the fact that it won't be finished for this summer. There is a possibility that it could be completed for mid to late summer, but certainly not the beginning.

What's most likely going to happen, is I'll be working on it throughout the summer and hopefully get it done for September. For me, that still would be a good time to release it.

BUT- I am not going to make that mistake again. The mistake being- making a deadline for my album. I never should have done that. It adds to much pressure. It makes the experience not fun anymore. I was doing great with it up until I uttered "I should have it done by this summer."

Because it went downhill from there.

But I except my wrong doing, and am now willing to move forward. Right now, moving forward entails finishing recording You'll Never Know, Rewind and Push for this VERY IMPORTANT contest I am to be entering in by May 1st.

When I'm done recording these songs, I'll let you know what I'm doing with them. Because you're going to be involved. :)

You'll see! ^^

As well as making that deadline (which is one I have to make), I will be working extremely hard on Social Studies. I'm in Socials Star Works, which is working at your own pace, and I am immensely behind.

But I am going to pass, for myself and for procrastinators everywhere!

I won't let us down!


Well, I better get my day started. I'm prepping to record Push, the guitar and vocals. I'm also in the middle of finishing up writing and writing more new songs on the piano.

It's fun. =) When it comes to music, that is what I ultimately love- songwriting. Everything else is just a bonus.

Singing off,

K *