Yesterday/Black And White

Okay.. well, I've written another song this week. This one's finished. And it's pretty good in my books- but that could be just because I love new material. :P

The entire song is with picking, it's slow, and my hand goes into a cramp when I play it on some tries. lol "No pain, no gain," I suppose.

Right off the bat I was just gonna call it Yesterday. But really, how could I compete with the Beatles? And when I think about it, there's probably tons of songs with that name. Along with Breathe, and anything to do with Rain. Which I, proudly, have not written such a song. ^-^ Well, at least not titled that. ;)

Any who, it's still in the decision process. It's either gonna be Yesterday, or I'm leaning more towards Black And White. See what you think..

******

I never thought that it could be like this

And I never thought that you could be like this

We were more than this, it used to seem

Lets pretend it's worth it, but honestly

It's so black and white

All the colors seem to fade to grey

I'm losing fight

for all we used to have yesterday

It's not okay

It's not okay

It's not okay

I'm not okay , it's not like it was yesterday.

Can't you see that all you were is left to me?

Can't you tell that all you do is for them, and not for you?

Why did you have to change for the worst?

Cause I don't know, I just don't know if it can be reversed

Your so black and white

All your colors seemed to fade to grey

I'm losing fight

for all we used to have yesterday

It's not okay

It's not okay

It's not okay

I'm not okay , it's not like it was yesterday.

You did say

you couldn't live without me

Then why do you try?

Why do you try so damn hard?

And now..

It's black and white

Cause all your colors seemed to fade to grey

Seems like were losing sight

of all we used to have yesterday

And that's not okay

It's not okay

That's not okay

I'm not okay, I'm not like I was yesterday.

*****

Oh, and you probably noticed that there was swearing in it once, again. Same with the last song I posted. Their both about the same person, the same circumstance. I guess it's what works me up. But, I don't think damn is much of a swear word anymore. I think it's the lightest one. I'm not even going to bother censoring it. lol

So that's all for tonight.

I'm very tired. And tomorrow's Halloween! I'll be staying up PRETTY late. :D

I is excited! =]

Type to you soon, more song lyrics and thoughts to come. :]

--Karl.

Rough lyrics

I meant to practice my set list for this gig I have on November 1st, but I ended up writing a song. Not surprising, I'm such a procrastinator and have a talent for finding something better to do. ;) Or at least, it always seems like it's better at the time.

These lyrics are really rough. Haven't edited them yet, I'll get to it soon enough. I just had this urge to post them, so here I am; and here they are:

Where did I leave you last?

Did I leave you in the past, did I?

Cause something here has changed

but I don't want to point my finger any which way

I feel like coming out

and I really just wanna talk about this

But tell me, tell me- is it really even worth it?

Cause if you ask me I'm fine

It's this illusion of mine

And all I wanted

was to see if we were

worth it, ever

It used to be so nice

we never even had one fight, you know

Now it's like pulling teeth

trying to get you to speak to me

And all those things you said

did you ever really even mean them?

Cause some things I did

but some things, I didn't.

Cause if you ask me I'm fine

It's this illusion of mine

And all I wanted

was to see if we were

worth it, ever

**Random catchy alternate chorus, or possible bridge below..

Because the s**t that you've done

is digging a hole

Sometimes its best to move on

or just let go

I don't know

But one things for sure

I'm losing hope.

And that's all folks.

xx Singing off - Karly oo

P.S.- First usage of a swear word in my writing. lol

Out of the doubt that fills my mind..

...

The dawn is breaking

A light shining through

You're barely waking

And I'm tangled up in you, yeah

I'm open, you're closed

Where I follow, you'll go

I worry I won't see your face

Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes

Even the wrong words seem to rhyme

Out of the doubt that fills my mind

I somehow find you and I collide

I'm quiet you know

You make a first impression

I've found I'm scared to know

I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes

Even the stars refuse to shine

Out of the back you fall in time

I somehow find you and I collide

Don't stop here

I lost my place

I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes

Even the wrong words seem to rhyme

Out of the doubt that fills your mind

You finally find you and I collide

You finally find you and I collide

You finally find you and I collide

...

And so the Journey begins!

Today was quite an interesting, and different, day!

I GOT BRACES.

=0 AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

Okay, okay, calm down. I did technically get braces, but their not your typical metal, brace face braces. Their "invisalign aligners." Their well, their invisible. I suppose the name speaks for itself. This morning, at precisely 9:45 AM, I tried on my first pair, and it went a little something like this...

^Putting in the bottom tray.

^Feeling them out, with the top tray in as well.

They felt SO weird. But I mean really, what do you expect? It is in fact putting a plastic mold that is slightly different then my teeth, on my teeth! That's got to feel weird. I have them in right now, and I'm getting used to it, but when I took them out before dinner (because your supposed to take them out every time you eat or drink anything that isn't water) it actually caused me pain. It really hurt man! I have to take them out again tonight, to brush my teeth, and sheesh! I hope it doesn't hurt as bad! :(

It should only get better though. It's just like when people go in to get their braces tightened. These are my first ones, their gonna be tight. They shouldn't be so bad by.. let's say Thursday. Give it two days.

I also got to watch this video of how they'll change over the next TWO YEARS, yes I know. That's a long time, but to me, time's been flying pretty fast lately. Months go back like *that,* so two years should be a breeze. ;)

-I'm trying to think positive about them okay! >_<

It'll be worth it though, because look at the supposed before and after pictures! =D

BEFORE

(the way they are now)

AFTER

Also as you can probably tell the before picture is pretty sketchy. It's way worse quality than the after, I actually paused the video and took a picture of it. All I had was the video!

But I think you get the idea.

It's pretty exciting I think. =) I won't know what to do with straight teeth though. They've been like this my whole life, with just gradually getting worse. That's the entire reason I felt like I had to get them fixed. If I didn't do something about them now, they'd just get worse. And trust me, they were. It wasn't pretty. But now, all I have to do is wait.. and endure the hassle and pain of having these weird plastic tooth coverings on 22 out of the 24 hours a day.

O_O

But it's all good! It'll all be worth it.. 2 years from now. O_o

lol.

Thanks mom and dad! I could have used them a little sooner..

but I'm glad I have them now. =]

I REALLY appreciate it. =D

And that's all for today folks!

Click on later. =]

-Karlial

P.S. - And so the journey to straight teeth begins! ^-^ It's gonna be a bumpy ride.. =P

Ongoing Epiphany

Hello there.

Well, this weekend was highly unproductive. Also highly uneventful. I can honestly say that the only things I did was I cleaned my room, did laundry, finished homework, sat around, watched a movie with my mum, played my guitar but didn't finish any set list of any kind or finish any songs, and I watched Sarah McLachlan's Afterglow Live DVD. Oh, and yesterday, while cleaning my room I watched Paramore's Final RIOT concert DVD.

And that is all. ._.

It sounds like a bit when I list it all off like that, but I didn't even leave the house. It's a little sad. Unless you count Friday as apart of the weekend. Cause then the only time I left the house was when we went to the SlipKnot concert, and to WhiteSpot before.

I always set aside the weekend's for cleaning and being productive with my music. The cleaning happens, just not the productive music part.. ._.

It doesn't sound good does it? No.

I always dwell on it too. It's quite a funny cycle I've got going. =P

I mean, I certainly don't do this every weekend, but lately, I feel like I've been in a bit of a rut. So to speak. I've been really.. tense. Like, I can't relax. It's kind of weird. I keep thinking about the future. Like, that's all I do these days. I guess, when I don't do something that's helping me with my future, I don't feel good..

It's weird.

I'm like, obsessed with it. Obsessed with not letting life pass me by. Which is ironic, because when I dwell on the future like that, that's exactly what I'm doing.

Buddha once said..

"The secret of health for body, mind and soul is not to mourn for the past, worry about the future, or anticipate troubles. But to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly."

And that's what I keep telling myself to start doing, but I think now, I just have to.. let it be. And maybe this is just my personality. Everyone has their quirks..

But I know, when I was younger of course, I never thought of the future. Well, I did, but I just didn't think of it like I do now. The way that I think of it now is, one day, I'll be 30. And then I'll be 50. And I'm more than halfway through my life. I just hope that when I'm more than halfway through my life I'll have accomplished something.

And that's what i keep trying to do right now.

Accomplish something. And not just with my music, but as a person.

I don't want it to go fast. And in those younger years, when I was 12, it wasn't going fast. But now, it feels like it is. I mean, I'm almost out of school, and that's kind of a scary thing to realize. Cause when you've graduated, that's a huge changing point in your life. Everything starts changing, rapidly I think.

I guess that's what's making me tense lately.

I'm just going through the in's and out's of everyday life, sometimes thinking there should be more. Especially when we only have so much time.

I mean, anything can happen.

And until then, we gotta live it up.

This is my on-going epiphany.

What? I've got to vent somewhere.

Singing off,

--K

Some things in life, you just have to experience.

There are some things in life you just have to experience.

From bad days, to things like, oh I don't know.. going to your first Heavy Metal concert. =P

If you didn't catch that hint, I'll just tell you.

Last night, believe it or not, I went to the SlipKnot concert at the SOFA. I'd like to say, I'm actually a hardcore SlipKnot fan, but in reality I only went because we got free box seats, and I've never been in a box seat. :-) But it really wasn't anything special.. except I got a coke without having to wait in line. There was our own private bathroom too, but I didn't even use it. =P It was cool though, going up the elevator instead of just entering the short stairs to the regular seating. And walking around up stairs until we got to our room. It certainly felt like the VIP experience. :] So I don't regret going.

And also, that isn't the only reason I don't regret going.

Cause again, "believe it or not" I'm not even lying, I enjoyed it.

I enjoyed the concert.

I knew 3 songs, and I liked 4.

I respect the band. The performed very well! People were so surprised to here that I was going to see them, some said they were scary, crazy, I even got the word disturbing. But it wasn't like that at all. They were just a band (in weird costumes mind you) that played a set of their songs for a crowd of people who enjoy their music. It wasn't even to loud! Which I found weird for their type of band. As I can remember, Simple Plan was louder than them.

Walking into the concert was different, I'll admit. The crowd was much different than I'm used to. Compared to Sheryl Crow and Avril Lavigne the people were a lot older. =P And almost all of them wore black. And crazy.. jewelry, piercings, some even wore makeup to look like a band member. Have I mentioned that there are 9 guys in SlipKnot? Oh, and I never had to deal with a frisking at the door. Not that that really helped the smoke level. It's easy to smuggle things in. Just put it in your shoe. Not that I'm suggesting you do that. =P

It was a right of passage.

One of those life experiences. :-)

Didn't bring my camera, so I only have bad quality cell phone pictures. But some of the, surprisingly, turned out okay. Of course there's not close up's, but you can get the gist of it.

I thought this one was cool. I was shocked to hear them do a slow song, but pleasantly surprised, because it was good. Oh, and everyone waved their lighters in the air.. Cause everyone had lighters. lol

The frontman had an interesting stage presence. Kind of creepy. =P

I think this picture looks creepy. Everyone's just standing still looking at this giant bright light. O_O Almost Zombie like..

During one of those bright light moments, I was able to take a photo of my family. That's my dad (who is the reason we went), my brother, and my mom. :)

And that's all of the photo's I took.

Or at least all of the ones that you could tell what they were. =P

It's the day after the concert, and I'm not doing much today. Still trying to shake this cold I've had for almost 2 weeks now. (You can still hear it in my voice) So no recording, but I better practice and get ready for when I can. Which is probably next weekend. Also need to put together a set list for the Acoustic Night on Wednesday.. and find someone to take with me.

OH! And I'm getting invisalign Tuesday morning. O_o

I'm diving right into extreme adolescence. I have to get elastics with them, which will make it difficult to take them out. WHICH IS EVERY TIME I EAT OR DRINK ANYTHING THAT ISN'T WATER. O_O For the next 2 years. How fun will that be?! ha ha ha. ._.

But, it's worth it. It'll be nice to have straight teeth for once. And this is the perfect time to get them, I'm still a dorky teenager in high school so it's all good. They'll be off a little after I'm out of school. Sounds pre' good to me!

So, that's all.

Gotta do homework, update my website, figure out set list, and practice.

Signing off

xx Karly.

Lost Lyrics

*Snippets of Lyrics I've written that I don't want to forget:

1)

I wake up, put on my converse shoes.

Can't remember the last time I got to choose

And you'll make up everything you want about her

like she doesn't even try.

In this life, it isn't getting any longer.

And I'll try not to remember what it's like to fall flat on my face,

& start again.. again..

2)

I'm fine, I am good.

What's up? Not much.

It's so vague, were misunderstood.

...

Maybe I'll just sing about it.

But my god, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles.

Wanna hold him, but maybe I'll just sing about it.

.... <3