@_@ <- Does that look like a confused face?
Because that's how I feel right now.
I feel like I need to do something like, just get up and go crazy, or run around my entire neighborhood. OR.. slap myself in the face. =|
Today was a whirlwind of emotions. From very content and pleased with myself to very upset and disheartened. I feel... numb almost. Right now anyway. I feel... I don't know how I feel. I feel like, that's it! I feel like I don't know how to feel, or.. what to do with myself.
*shakes head violently*
Hmm.. what to do in situations like these.. =\ (thinking face for future reference).
Well, there's always homework to do, but that just makes me more depressed.
There's always my room to clean. I'm looking at it right now... My $1100 guitar lying across my bed along with my backpack and gym bag. Clothes strewn across the floor everywhere I look.. I never seem to find the time to put them back every single day, so that leaves me having to do a once a week clean up, or just every time someone comes over..
I could... go for a walk. I would like to go for a walk around my neighborhood. Feel the sun (because it is out today, surprisingly enough), let the cool breeze stop me from thinking so much. Here birds chirping and people mowing their lawns, which I can hear from here.
I would like to do that, but I'm slightly self conscious about going out alone. I hate it, and I really never do it. I never know what to do with myself. It's awkward in a way.
But, I'm an awkward person so I should just learn to deal with that.
You know what?...
I think blogging my thought's is actually helping.
Maybe that's all I need. By writing them down (well, typing technically), taking what's inside my head and applying it to something slightly constructive seems to put me at ease. Or, at least at more ease than I was before..
I do feel better. & I like this blogging thing. ^_^
And, I'm not ashamed to post my thoughts for whoever wants to read this blog. In fact, I'm quite okay with it.
I think that's all for now.
Till another day...