It's 6:25 PM, Christmas Eve Eve, and mouses are very much stirring.
Everyone in my house is busy with something. My mum's making dinner. My dad's watching the news while talking with my brother, who's most likely on his iPhone. And my cousin is probably on his laptop... looking up something. I'm guessing all of these things, well just the last two, because I'm in a separate room. I'm hidden away in my bedroom with my cats, typing up this new blog post.
What do I have to say for myself? Well, I really want to get my album done. Above all else, it's what I REALLY want to accomplish.
Now I know what you're saying, "Then why don't you?" Well, because... I'm weird?
Because I've hit a tough spot. I'm having difficulty with the last three songs I want to produce for it. I know. ONLY THREE. I've completed eight already, and then there are two more that are acoustic.
I'm almost there ._.
While that's a very inspiring thought, it's also pretty discouraging at the same time. I just can't seem to get past these three songs. I've started a couple, and I haven't even thought of the third one...
It's mildly overwhelming. Which sounds silly, but it's true. Well, I think it is.
The reason I'm bringing this up is, well, because it's the thing that's always on my mind. Has been for years, really. And especially because right now is a very good time for me to really work on it. It's Winter break, we get a few weeks off from school. It's the 4th day of the break today, and what have I done?
I wrapped presents.
That's about the most productive thing I did. Actually, that's not true. I did completely revamp my blog (nice, isn't it? :]) and my Myspace page. (Check it!) So now I can feel like a bit less of a loser. But still no very important progress. I keep just banging my head against the wall.
I'm waiting for a breakthrough.
I'm working with Garageband to produce my album, and so far it's gone great. But lately, as you know- RUT.
I HATE WORKING WITH DIFFERENT TEMPOS. In fact, I can't seem to get any tempos right for any of these songs, even if there's no change in them!
That's right. Full on venting. Full on double venting all the way across my blog.
Well, tomorrow's Christmas Eve. Doubt I'll get anything done then. I'll be helping my mum cook Christmas dinner for our annual Christmas Eve family dinner. Everyone's coming in.
...You know, two years ago during the Christmas break is when I produced You'll Never Know. Everyone in our house was sick except for me and my dad. I basically hid away in my room for a week. That's when I produced the first song to go on my album two years later... I did it just for fun. Maybe that's the difference now. I'm forcing myself...
Well, that doesn't help much.
If I don't post before Christmas than MERRY CHRISTMAS! Or Happy Hanukkah or Kwanza!
Ha, "Happy Christmas, Hanukkah, Kwanza. Share it with your loved ones. But don't forget that I'm still here. I'll write you letters every year. Happy Christmas, Hanukkah, Kwanza and maybe even Festivus too. I don't know about you. But I know we never get too old. So happy Christanukkza!"
That's the chorus to a holiday song I wrote three years ago. The only holiday song I've written.
Anyway, signing off,