you + me

So I take what I can get and I put it in my pocket

There's a handful of regret, but it seems I went and lost it

Don't you know, don't you know that the best things in life are free?

Like you and me, just you and me

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Good to Be Back :)

Hello my little friend,

It's been a while, and in that while some things have changed- while some have not.

I'm feeling a tad more optimistic about my album, but that's just because I'm forcing myself into that mind set. I haven't physically done anything about it, or toward its creation, but it's spring break, this gives me some time.

I'm so happy that it's Spring. =) As I've said before, I love Summer, and we're just that much closer. It makes me feel peaceful, happy. ^_^ Not that I become a complete pessimist in the Winter, but warm and sunny weather gives me that extra boost of energy.

That's how it feels anyway.

I've started writing again- songs I mean. When I was in that "gotta work on my album!" stage, I completely disregarded everything else. I know that sounds bad. I have to remember to balance things in my life, and I'm working on that. Always am...

Anyway, it's probably one of the reasons I'm in a particularly better mood. I forgot what it does for me. It's really a selfish thing, my music. It's how I vent, well I suppose writing altogether is my way of venting. When I wasn't blogging or writing songs, or anything, I was keeping it all bottled up. I can't take those things for granted. Even if I sit down at the piano and end up writing a really crappy song, it still makes me feel good. It's still what I crave.

This time however, I did not write a crappy song. I wrote a lovely song. :)

This makes me even happier. ;)

I don't have a title for it yet, but I do quite like it. I wrote it on my keyboard, and am getting better with the keys. This is one of the things I want to accomplish in the near future- to keep getting better at piano. I need to keep progressing, and writing songs with it helps me do that.

I bought a new Notebook when I was out one day, (I'm addicted to purchasing cool notebooks when I spot them, even if I never end up writing in them) it's an eco-friendly one, with leaves on the front and back covers. I've been writing in it steadily and so far, out of that writing I've started two new songs. One of which is the piano one I was talking about and one came from jamming on my guitar.

Their both interesting. Different from what I've written in the past- which I love. I like to progress in my writing as well, that's why I'll always be plugging away... I suppose I should take the same approach to producing as well...

It's just, I'm stuck producing Goody Two Shoes and Stay Strong. I have to get by these two songs in order to move forward. One of the problems for me I think, is their so old. I'm not into it. I am however, into writing new songs. Quite frankly their boring me.

How do I bring them back to life?

Well, writing this blog sure made me realize a couple things. It's good to be back again. :) Back to blogging and the blogging community. =]

So here I am, here to stay :]

Signing off,

K

The Little Things ☮

I'm happy to inform you that things seem to be looking up. :)

And it might just be because I've changed my mind set, but that's okay with me. After all, we are in charge of our own happiness, or at least that's what I like to believe. So now, I've finally taken that saying to heart and changed my way of thinking about things.

It could also have something to do with the good talk I had with my mum at the beginning of the long weekend. I guess sometimes venting on here just isn't enough.

But ANYWAY, this weekend was quite fun. :] I crossed #11 off my Bucket List (that's setting up the basketball hoop in the driveway and playing B-ball with the "neighborhoodlums"), went to Little Carley's 16th Birthday party and completed two school assignments.

Needless to say, it was indeed productive.

I had a lot of fun as well! =) It was beautiful all three days, and I really soaked it up. Acted like a solar panel to be quite frank. :P It reminded me how excited I truly am for Summer. I have officially decided- Summer is my favorite season hands down. Forget about Winter, Summer is where it's at! The sun, the fun, the friends, the festivals, the NO SCHOOL, the sleeping in... I could go on but it's probably your favorite too, you know the reasons. ;) haha.

One of the school assignments I had to complete was a Self Essay for English. It was due on Thursday, but here I was on Sunday sitting at my computer, waiting for a stroke of genius to be blessed upon me. When I was at school, I couldn't write anything to save my life. It was the weirdest thing actually. I pride myself on being a writer- or at least being able to write and enjoying writing- but this time I just froze. It could have been the environment and not being able to focus, or maybe it was the fact that... I HATE WRITING ESSAYS. Why? I. don't. know. I hate having to structure my writing. I like to let what I have to say just flow out in whatever form it happens to shape itself in, but of course with essays you cannot allow this. You must "prepare" and "organize" your thoughts before you begin AND shove a thesis and topic sentence in the first paragraph... blah, blah, blah, blah, BLAHH.

>.<

lol. So let's just say I was stuck. It wasn't working and for the majority of the long weekend I left it. It wasn't until today when I worked up enough courage to even entertain the idea of starting again. GROWL, were my thoughts exactly.

But, my mum gave me some advice, and I guess that's what she's good at because about two hours later I submerged from my bedroom and printed up my finished essay.

=D HOORAY

A huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders and it feels delightful.

So here, I give you the weight that I will be handing in tomorrow- late mind you, but I'm proud of it nonetheless.

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Click to see full size.

=) What do you think?

I'm really happy with it, and I actually got to know myself better by writing it.

Well, I think that's all for now. I still have more homework to do.

x[ I know. It's depressing.

But I got the bulk of the work done, so don't feel too bad for me. ;P

Till next type!

K

The List

Hi blog.

I know I've been kind of rude lately, ignoring you like this. But the thing is, I've been really busy. Now I know this sounds like a complete cop-out, but it's true. I have been busy with real things- things that you'd count. Like school and homework- actual, physical things. But there are also just the ins and outs of life that I have been busy with. And these seem to take up much more of my time lately.

Do you know what I mean?

In other words- I feel as though I'm thinking my life away.

I've always been one to love and admire quotes like:

"I figure life's a gift and I don't intend on wasting it. You don't know what hand you're gonna get dealt next. You learn to take life as it comes at you... to make each day count."

and...

"The secret of health for body, mind and soul is to not mourn for the past, worry about the future, or anticipate troubles, but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly."

I completely agree with these mind sets, and only wish that I could be as adventurous as Jack from Titanic, or as wise as Buddha. I constantly tell myself to embrace these ways, the ways of life I truly believe in and really want to live mine by, but I just .... seem to end up not following through with it.

.................................................

(the above was written on February 11th, 2010)

I decided to continue on writing the entry, because today's topic fit with that of the post before. Let's continues shall we?

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Today; this is going to change. Because today, I have created my Bucket List.

:)

You know what I'm talking about right? A Bucket List being a list of things one wants to do before they "kick the bucket" (die). Well, today in Social Studies SW me and three of my friends started writing ours. :]

It's really exciting actually! So far, I have 12 things on my list, and before I tell you what these things are, you should know that I made it a point to not write things like "get married" or "record first album" because those are types of things that I most likely would have done or would have already wanted to do with or without my Bucket List. The types of things I am including in my list are adventurous, random and fun experiences.

... Or at least, they are to me! :P

Click on picture to enlarge.

So there you have it. The beginning of what I hope to keep forever, to constantly be adding to and of course COMPLETING! =P

*Cheers to a lifetime of adventurous experiences!*

^^

OH! When my friends and I made these bucket list's today, we also agreed to certain "terms" of the list.

#1 We're going to carry our list's with us wherever we go, in case inspiration strikes and we need to add something before we forget.

#2 We can "challenge" each other to add certain activities to our lists. As long as they aren't defying any laws of physics or completely stupid and/or ridiculous.

#3 In the last week before summer break, we are going to gather outside Belmont on the back field and compare our lists. This will be a perfect time for some of the "challenging" to occur.

And the obvious rule,

#4 You MUST complete your list!

You must make everything you write on your list, a reality! So...

Tip #1) Write awesome things on your list! :P

I'm really excited about the whole idea, and am glad that I've created one at this point in my life. After all:

"Life is a journey, not a destination."

(Cause we all know what the destination is...)

☮ . . . Karly

I set myself up.

Well. I don't have to decide anymore.

Someone decided for me.

Now, I can just be sad instead.

=[

Another family bought her. Out of the five puppies that were there, they liked the same one we did. Even though my mom says they were a nice family, I'm still extremely sad about it. I didn't even get to see her again. We were planning to this weekend together. My mom went this morning to see her, but at that exact same time frame another lady did as well.

So long story short: she's gone.

I was actually a bit surprised to react the way that I did. I was legitimately very sad. We've been discussing her all week and it seemed like such a reality. Like we were most likely going to end up with this new addition to our lives. I was so excited about, and as soon as I heard someone else was interested in her, I knew she was gone.

Now that I know were not getting her, the silver linings seem to be irrelevant. Now I have lots of money to spend on other things, now I'll have more time for other things...

Right now; at this moment, all of that seems a million times more lame. I don't even know what to do with myself now because I thought I'd be training her and walking her and just... enjoying something that wasn't so materialistic.

This felt like something that could broaden my horizons as a person. Enrich my life and bring us joy. The alternative to that is "Well...now I can buy an iPhone."

._.

It just sucks.

I'm really, quite frankly just extremely let down.

I never should have dangled that in front of my own face.

I set myself up for disappointment.

Hey Decisions! I hate you.

Alright.

I'm back. I haven't been blogging hardly at all lately, and I miss it! There's something about it that I like better then physically writing in a journal. Maybe it's that I can share it with people, and exchange ideas. Or maybe it's that I can use photos to accompany text. OR it might just be that if I make a mistake, I don't have the dishonorable duty of drawing a big fat line across the incorrect word or statement. PLUS, typing is much faster. :-P

Well, whatever it is, it feels good to be back. =)

It's February first and there's a bit going on. A few new things, surprises, and one thing that I have to do that I hate most of all.

And that's making a DECISION. O_o

Really, I admit it, most of the time I am terrible at deciding on things. I'm not terrible at making decisions, because I usually make the right choice. It just takes me an immeasurable amount of time to make them. And in this scenario- the one I'm about to explain to you, time is of the essence.

You see, the day before school started up again (yesterday) my mum and I wondered into a Pet Store. I was originally looking for a kitten, a little like minded furry companion for Louie (my cat of four years) because he's been quite lonely and bored ever since my first dog Tuffy, died 2 years ago. He's been friendless. I look at it like he's an only child. It's not fair! I try to play with him, but I can only whip around a string for so long before we both get bored of it.

So, my original plan was to get another cat. I could just imagine them playing together, keeping each other company. It would be cute, and I don't care if it makes me look like a cat person!

Anyway, those were my intentions. But the outcome was much different.

MUCH.

Long story short, now I want a dog. A certain puppy that we both fell in love with that day through the thick glass window. She's a scruffy little thing with the most adorable, quite and gentle personality.

I mean, just look at her! -> http://dailybooth.com/u/1ps9u

I KNOW!

I was tossing and turning since 5:00 this morning, thinking about the whole situation. Just a few days ago I was in a completely different mind set, but now since I've seen her I can't get her out of my mind. And not just her, I can't stop mulling it over and over again in my head- wether or not getting a dog is the right decision for right now.

It's driving me insane ! !

To add to the madness, I feel like I have a time limit. Someone else could buy her before I even make my decision! I don't know how I would feel if that happened. I'd feel sad, that's for sure.

Ugh, life is funny that way. You never know what's going to happen next. I certainly never saw this coming. It was a surprise. A cute, furry, dangerously adorable surprise.

And here I am again. With yet another decision needed to be made.

....

what?

You expected me to come up with a brilliant revelation by the end of this post?

As if.

I don't feel even close. It's all... up in the air right now.

I guess for now I'll just have to find the smart, responsible, grown up inside of me and carefully think about what buying this puppy would mean, and how it would effect my life. INSTEAD of doing what my heart tells me. (Which is running off to that pet store this very second and bringing her home).

*sigh*

Is that revelationy enough for you?

Well, more to come from the life of an indecisive girl making decisions. *Chuckle* Oh the irony!

Singing off,

K

I'm Sorry :'(

I'M SORRY! ='(

For not posting a blog in two weeks and completely neglecting you! I've been a horrible person.

xP

Of course I'm being sarcastic, but in a way I'm not. Besides the "me being a horrible person" comment, it's really quite true. Since the very first post of the new year I have not blogged in much, much too long. 

What was I doing you ask? Well... I was actually trying out different alternatives to blogging. Now your really heartbroken, I know but WAIT- I was attempting something possibly better...

Vlogging.

You see, I was browsing YouTube a couple days ago and stumbled upon a user named "Charlieissocoollike." After watching some of his videos I was inspired! I really wanted to make my own vlog on YouTube. WELL, much easier said than done. ._.

It's quite funny actually, I have no problem sitting at my computer, typing away all my deepest thoughts and emotions. But when it comes to getting in front of the camera and making light conversation I CRASH AND BURN! I will admit this. I attempted my first vlog for approximately 2 hours until I realized that it just wasn't going to work. 

*sad face*

Maybe I should just stick to what I'm good at- writing. BUT I will try to vlog again, you can count on that. And maybe one day the clouds covering my natural charisma will part and you'll see (if your a subscriber *HINT*) that I've made a new video and it's categorized under People & Blogs this time, instead of under Music.

^-^

I'm keeping the faith!

Other new things since I posted last include:

• I finished my first Twilight Journal! :) This may not be exciting or even relevant news to you, but for me it's a mini breakthrough. I haven't finished writing in a Journal since I was twelve.
• No more progress on my album since I Can Hear You. But I get the entire week off from school, so I'm planning on getting LOTS done. I'm a wishful thinker.
• I joined The Daily Booth community! Just discovered it last night and I think I could have fun with it. =] Follow me HERE and try it out yourself if you'd like. :)
• And last but certainly not least... I think I might have failed me Math 11 exam! ... O_x

I know, not very eventful when you put it altogether like that, but I thought it might sound at least a little more interesting.

Ha.  O.o

Well, I suppose that's about all for now. This entry has really felt like a fail to me, but hey! Maybe you'll feel otherwise. I'm just all mixed up and jumbled right now it seems. >.< Oh! There I go talking about my feelings again.

I'm gonna leave before this starts to get meaningful!

PEACE ☮

K

Newness :)

Happy New Year everyone! ^-^

Isn't living in the year 2010 crazy? Answer: Yes. This world is insane. I have reasons to back this up, but this isn't what I want to discuss for my first blog entry of the year.

What do I want to discuss?

I'M BACK IN THE GAME! =D

Now I've completely lost you. =P You see, for the past couple months I have been lost. I've just been kind of roaming around, not getting anything done (even though I have so much to do), and finding excuses to do nothing.

The turning around of this cycle started with school being disguised as a wake up call. In the form of homework. I surprised myself by getting a crap load of work done in just a few days. I worked really hard, and I seemed to feel good again.

It's like, when I'm unproductive I feel like crap.

lol.

When I'm doing something happy, something that I enjoy and that just happens to be productive as well I feel 100%. And I guess that's why I was feeling lousy. Because I wasn't getting anywhere with my album and my music is all of those things to me.

Tonight though, is when this changed. :]

And I am "SUPER BEST" happy! (Don't ask :P)

I finally started I Can Hear You which is my 5th song for my album. I'm on my way! Got to stay focused: deadline is the end of May. I'm feeling pretty good about it now. And this is GREAT because I was so tense about it before. This is really giving me the boost of confidence I needed deeply.

^^

On another note: hope you like the new layout! :) Thought I could use a fresh start on here too, plus I was getting bored of the old one. I suppose I was also bored of my Twitter layout, since I changed it too.

MENTAL NOTE: Have to get my mum to write a new Biography for me!

So many new things, it's making me excited!

Well, cheers to the future -but don't forget to cherish the moment. ;)

Singing off,

K

P.S. My Holidays were splendid. =) Just thought I'd cover that too.