First Love, first poem

._. I wrote a poem.

I don't know why. Maybe it's because I'm sick and can't use my voice.

I never write poems- especially not ones that don't rhyme. Although, this poem does end up rhyming throughout most of it, just not in the beginning and not in the end- which is very peculiar for me.

Perhaps reading strictly free verse poetry in English is starting to rub off.

Hm.

Well any which way, this is what happened to fall out of my head:

First Love

I can remember it like it was yesterday

the smell of freshly baked cookies

your skin

The pitter patter of raindrops on the windows,

on the roof

and in your eyes

Feelings that felt familiar,

yet strangely new

Undiscovered,

unrealized,

until I met you

From the moment I learned your name

I found new reasons to speak

There was something in the air,

something that made me weak

I can't exactly place it,

no matter how hard I try

You showed me a new way to laugh,

and in the end; to cry

Although I may seem bitter

and resentful of what you put me through

Always know I'm better for it

I lived, I changed; I grew

I'm thankful for what it was we shared

It didn't last, I am aware

But the skeleton; what it left behind

is everlasting

More than a scar, a bruise, a burn

or ten thousand lacerations

It's a turning point

The first day of the rest of our lives

What we love and hate,

take for granted- appreciate,

despise, yet want

First love

This poem (no pun intended) is a first for me. I've never really written poetry- only a few times, if even. I've certainly never completed one, especially not one this long.

Hm. =\

I hope it wasn't too corny. =P It's just what came out. I can't help it! ><

Till next write,

K

A big THANK YOU- Last Lilith Post

Hey you guys!

Last Thursday I did an interview with Gordie Tupper for CHEK News about competing in the Lilith Fair Local Talent Search. It's up on YouTube now, I just wanted to post it on here as well...

To watch it on YouTube and comment, rate etc... click HERE.

The judging for the Top 20 is over tomorrow (May 24th, 2010), so I'd just like to take this time to say- whatever happens, it's been an awesome experience. =) To know I can count on so many people for support means a lot to me. So many of you have really pulled through, and I thank you for that. :)

Over the past 23 days, I've felt the love! ^^

Even if I don't get the spot, I'll always remember how surreal and exciting the experience was. There are so many talented artists in just Vancouver alone, I am completely dumbfounded and honored to be ranked so high amongst them all.

It's incredible.

I'd also like to thank the people in charge of this competition, for giving undiscovered musicians the opportunity to play such a prestigious gig. For a lot of them- a dream gig, the gig of a lifetime.

Well, tomorrow's the day. Actually, really, Tuesday is the day (the 25th). That's when one lucky girl gets that phone call or e-mail of congratulations. I'll try not to get my hopes up (I'm trying right now), because I know, as I said before, how many other talented musicians they have to choose from. Ha, twenty to be exact. =P

I'll still be going to Lilith though, cheering on Sarah, Sheryl and whichever "Vancouverite" plays the Village Stage. I'm excited for that actually. My mum's already purchased our tickets. :] I've only seen Sarah- and Sheryl for that matter- once each before, so I can't wait. =) There's also countless other artists to look forward to.

Perhaps I'll discover some new inspirations. :)

Well, I think that about covers it.

I'll be blogging soon, and until (or around) May 25th, keeping my fingers crossed.

Wish me luck!

K <3

I. Can't. Wait. :)

I've been meaning to write a new blog post for the past... eighteen days, but I just couldn't find the right... story.

I mean, there are many things I could have wrote about, but I wanted to update my blog with something more... relevant. Something that you- my dedicated readers ^^- would enjoy.

Today, I think I have found it. :)

On a Wednesday like any other, a regular mid-week school day, I was going through the motions as normal. Seeing my friends at lunch, rehearsing for the up-coming (tomorrow night actually) Drama: Acting Showcase, and completing some exam prep worksheets for English- nothing out of the ordinary.

It wasn't until I got a text from my mum, confirming the radio interview that was scheduled for 3:30 on The Eagle (Comox radio station) with Ryan Mennie, that I got excited.

It wasn't simply the interview that got me so revved up, but rather the feelings it caused to resurface. Walking out of my school's library and skipping out of the last half-hour of English reminded me of the place I wanted to be so much more than there. I wanted to be working on my album, writing new songs, doing interviews and... performing again. :]

Talking on the phone with Ryan, discussing all the events yet to come in the near -and distant- future.. all the possibilities... only confirmed what I want most, and what my passion is.

It's my music.

It's meeting new people

It's traveling

It's producing

It's creating

It's sharing

It's expressing

And most of all, over everything, it's moving forward. It's constantly progressing and learning and experiencing new things- new... adventures. :)

This is what I always want to be doing. To me, it's what makes it all worth while; to be truly, and actively, living.

And I'll tell you one thing... I. Can't. Wait.

:)

Unbelievable. THANK YOU x a million :']

Just wanted to share my moment of pure ecstasy with you, because I know how quick it can change.

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU <3

Keep the faith. xx

Playing at Lilith= my dreams coming true

._. Okay, I am hyperventilating right now.

And I tell you why,

As of last night, I've entered into the Lilith Fair Local Talent Search, hosted by OurStage. Lilith Fair is Sarah McLachlan's celebration of women in music tour. It travels all around the world with many well-known and extremely talented female artists and bands.

-This year, there is a 45 minute opening set available in the tour that will be taken by an "upcoming artist," chosen from the Top 20 of the OurStage Standings.

I am currently number 15.

zhfguldnregjrlkeinovclqwwwae,nfbjdhgafdulskahnjcekhatueiqv ! ! ! ! ! ! !

=o =o =o

Of course this doesn't mean I'm going to win, but it gives me the OPPORTUNITY to POSSIBLY do so, and this makes me want to get up and dance.

And if you know me, I am not a dancer.

It's also terrifying though. Last night I was number 158, this morning I went up to number 18. Then to 20, then 25, 35, 34 and now I'm back up to 15.

IT'S SO UNRELIABLE! I'm having panic attacks every time I look at it.

It is not healthy.

But it's SO WORTH IT ! ! !

Since this is so extremely, ridiculously and uncontrollably important to me I'm going to do all that I can to stay in the Top 20. But, I can't do it alone ._.

That's where you come in.

I really need your help. If you do, in fact, want to help me, then this is what your job is:

Click HERE, it will take you to judging. You get four songs to listen to. You have to listen to at least 15 seconds of each song. Then you decide which one is the best, the worst and in between.

Do this honestly, and at your own discretion. But here's the catch,

When/if you get my entry as an option (You'll Never Know) then please please please vote me as number one. :) This will help me a lot.

It's actually pretty fun. Think about it, this is all of the talent in just Vancouver alone! It blows me away!

Other ways you can help me is by choosing me as your favorite artist. Click here, to select a city. (Scroll to the bottom, and choose Vancouver). [You can also judge this way] The click on the Artists tab, find me (it's in alphabetical order, I'm on page 8) and then click "Make Karly Summers my favorite band," next to the heart.

The last thing you can do is comment on my OurStage page here. Scroll to the bottom and click "add comment."

Of course, out of those three, judging is the most important.

._. I'm back down to 18 now.

*PANIC ATTACK*

Oh- also, the contest closes on May 30th, so there's a month open for voting.

Please, please, PLEASE do though! It means the world to me!

I'll talk to you soon <3

K

you're not alone.

Hm. . .

I want to write an entry right now, but I don't know what to say. Actually, that's a lie. I have something to say, but I can't decide if it's being too personal. I mean, I pride myself on telling the truth in my blogs, and I do- but there is that barrier, that line between what I would write for everyone to see, and what I should keep to my personal, physical journals.

._.

Well, I think I'll attempt it- but I'm going to be as vague as I possibly can. No specifics, no names.

It's actually about blogging itself, and people I know who participate in it. For me, blogging is a way to vent, to let my thoughts and feelings escape somewhere, if not in conversation to an actual living person... who can respond... then to an inanimate object that has no choice but to listen, and record.

Now, it seems it's turned into something bigger, something more relevant. It's now changed from just a personal hobby of mine, to a looking glass into other people's lives. A window into their feelings and hardships, outlooks and well.. things I never would have known if it weren't for their mutual habit of making sense of it, typing it all out and publishing it for me, and anyone else who is interested, to see.

The only difference it seems, between their posts and my posts, is they let everything out. One of them even writes entries as if they were talking to a certain person in their life and even names that person. This someone, is a lot more thoughtful and grounded then I ever could have imagined. Their blog is making me see them in a completely different light... their blog is making them more relatable and familiar to me.

It's crazy.

Things I never would have known- and possibly shouldn't know- I do now.

It's funny- we see people in our everyday lives, doing everyday things, having everyday small talk with other everyday people- but we never really stop and think what it could be like for them... how things have played out in their lives- let alone, what their thinking. People who are weird, or maybe just the quiet ones who you don't really question, but just accept that their that way and don't think that there could be more to it than that.

Much, much more.

To have accessed such a thing that gives me this insight is (like I said before) crazy.

So, to those who feel hurt, rejected, happy, sad, unimaginative, embarrassed, inspired, curious, depressed, misunderstood- or even all of that all rolled into one- perhaps, you should join the blogging community.

And perhaps, you should discover that you're not alone.

"We're best friends, you see."

Okay, I give up.

I miss mixing my song lyrics with my blog posts. ><

I made another blog, as you may already know, called "K S LYRICS," but it just isn't as much fun as letting the lyrics play out in my life events as they naturally would.

So, I'm going to start posting lyrics on here again.

Since I've been writing a lot lately (songs I mean) that would actually give some bulk to this blog, because I haven't been posting as near as often as I used to. I'm down to two on average per month.

This makes me sad! :(

I'm going to make a conscious effort to blog more frequently.

That's two things that I plan to do. =o

Another thing that I plan to do is, participate in the semi-annual (it seems) Coffee House at my high school. If you don't know what I'm talking about, it's like an open mic for students at my school, held in various places in said school. Such as this time it's the cafeteria- which isn't as bad as it sounds, they bring out couches, a stage and everything! It's quite cute. :)

I was going to attempt to play piano (since I've been playing and writing so much on it lately), but I've chickened out at the last minute. To be quite frank with you, I'm nervous about it, and performing with piano is a big step for me. I don't want to add more stress than I need to, so I'm sticking to my first instrument, and that is guitar.

We're best friends, you see.

Piano and I, well, we're still getting acquainted.

;)

Now that I've decided I'm just playing guitar, I need to re-think my set list. I need four or five songs... I'm thinking newer ones, just because that would be more interesting for my friends.

... and me :]

Hmm...

NOT IN ORDER:

1. Something Again
2. It's Been Too Many
3. You'll Never Know

And for the fourth one, I feel it should be more... happy? :P More upbeat.

Maybe.. I Can Hear You.

So that would probably look something like:

1. You'll Never Know
2. Something Again
3. I Can Hear You
4. It's Been Too Many

Hm. =\

Well that's all I've got for now.

I'll blog later, look forward to some new lyrics! :)

Signing off,

K

Realizations

Hey you.

How have you been?

I've been pretty good. As of late, I've been realizing some things.

One of these things would be my record.

I have finally given in, and accepted the fact that it won't be finished for this summer. There is a possibility that it could be completed for mid to late summer, but certainly not the beginning.

What's most likely going to happen, is I'll be working on it throughout the summer and hopefully get it done for September. For me, that still would be a good time to release it.

BUT- I am not going to make that mistake again. The mistake being- making a deadline for my album. I never should have done that. It adds to much pressure. It makes the experience not fun anymore. I was doing great with it up until I uttered "I should have it done by this summer."

Because it went downhill from there.

But I except my wrong doing, and am now willing to move forward. Right now, moving forward entails finishing recording You'll Never Know, Rewind and Push for this VERY IMPORTANT contest I am to be entering in by May 1st.

When I'm done recording these songs, I'll let you know what I'm doing with them. Because you're going to be involved. :)

You'll see! ^^

As well as making that deadline (which is one I have to make), I will be working extremely hard on Social Studies. I'm in Socials Star Works, which is working at your own pace, and I am immensely behind.

But I am going to pass, for myself and for procrastinators everywhere!

I won't let us down!

;)

Well, I better get my day started. I'm prepping to record Push, the guitar and vocals. I'm also in the middle of finishing up writing and writing more new songs on the piano.

It's fun. =) When it comes to music, that is what I ultimately love- songwriting. Everything else is just a bonus.

Singing off,

K *